Thursday, December 30, 2004

im still alive!

so what day is it? lol ive completely lost track with christmas and everything. past two days ive been sick. got the flu from lisa. joy of joy. dad had it as well, so i guess its a keep it in the family sorta thing. who ever thought sitting up and typing would be so hard to do? today ive been eatting my saltine crackers and drink gingerale, just to get some energy and sugars back. i thought it was incrediabley funny when lisa came up to me and said she was keeping it light by having some cabbage rolls. LOL shes like its just veggies and meat. i laughed and said ya thats the Sway side of the family of "keeping it light" lol anyways, so i guess new years is coming up soon. i still have nothing to do. jen talked to me, and said if she could dhe would take me with her to andres, but i dont think i can stay the night. she then asked me what i was doing and i told her ill probably stay home alone, toast myself since lisa might not be home, and laura might go out who know. she told me that was sad. lol the way i figure it is ive got no one really special to spend it with, and id probably feel more alone being the only single person out there right? so all is good for me. im not one of a big public partier anyways. more of those home parties for me. and heres hoping im feeling better in time as well. wel, ive been playing with my webcam a little, out of bordum. its kinda cool, doin all the videos and stuff. i did one for 3 seconds and sent it to cae lol. labelled it "my first video" lol he said hed broadcast it for me on tv lol... oh id be the hit of brazil! hehe. anyways, im gettin kinda tired so im going to go. omg! i just looked that its thursday! oh i highly doubt im doing anything now for new years lol. *sigh* oh well lol.

Tuesday, December 28, 2004

poor lil james :(

so its the 28th already. today i went out and bought a webcam. im not sure why lol. only because im so darn shy. but i guess its the element of this is me, now and here. i had to recruit to my bedroom again though or people would just see romeo (just ask cae) lol its for sure weird these things. anyways, so the rest of my day, im going to go over with jen to laura for dinner. laura had a turkey dinner in a box lol and shes cooking it up tonight. the whole family was suppose to go over, but dad is sick at mom and dads place and lisa is sick here, so i invited jen to come with me. should be an interesting dinner lol. im sitting here think of james too. tomorrow he gets his wisdom teeth out and i want to call him but i didnt get his parents phone number. maybe its in my phone. ill have to check that hehe. ive just gotten really tired. i hope im not getting sick. last night i had the worse migrane. it wasnt really my head but i went completely numb. it was really scarey! i could barely get water and take some sdvil. i must say those advil migrane pills, im sold on!! i took two of them and i fell back asleep in 20 minutes and un numb! lol. it used to take about 2 hours just to get back to sleep. with a headache. magical what pills can do. *blah* alrighty im going to lay down for a while cause well i am lol.

Sunday, December 26, 2004

And it was in Bobcaygen...

so today was bobcaygen. i was dreading it lol. but it turned out pretty well. grandma was actually plesent today. we had a good time. we stayed opened presents, ate food, stayed another hour or so then left at 4:30pm. ya three hour drives :) something odd happened, there was no fighting between any of us.. this is the oddest thing. being stuck in the car 3 hours to and 3 hours home with family members and no fighting not even any degrating combacks lol. it was amazing! all and all we had a really good day. laura even came over for dinner tonight and had left overs, of course i had to make her some gravy but it was all good. so now im home watching the rest of my sex and the city dvds. im going to have to go out tomorrow and buy more of them hehe. the problem with getting ove dvd set is u have to get the rest of the seasons hehe. im so happy that the next few days i can just sleep in and do nothing. but now im left thinking what should i do for new years. new years im always left like this lol.. i dont really have anyone to go out and do anything with every year, so i usually dont end up doing anything. or end up driving my drunkin parents around lol... but this year, i think im going to be completely alone. which i think i might be looking foward to. although i always have tha wish to have someone with me but i think ive given up on that lol. so tomorrow im going to the lcbo, getting one of those mini champanes and another season of sex and the city on dvds. but im sure my plans will change as always on that night hehe. anyways, so over all my christmas holidays were great. it was just an overall happy time, which our family hasnt had in a really long time and that makes me happy. i think my family really enjoyed having dinner here, for the first time, and for me it was absolutely no stress which was nice. but im beat, its amazing how these holidays make ya tired. and with that im going to bed, and sleeping forever hehe.

Saturday, December 25, 2004

Merry Christmas!!

So the end of christmas day.. how did everyones christmas go? good i hope. im finally back home. so nice to be home! woke up this morning at about 8:45 my uncle got up and turned on the coffee for himself, then i could hear him talking to romeo. asking romeo to go upstairs and wake us up do i finally decided that i should go down and see him lol. then i had my shower and cofee, got back into my pajamas. laura came by. her and uncle ed headed to moms. then lisa and i did about 20 minutes later. mom was already witht eh food when we walked in the door so we sat to the table right away. which was nice for a change hehe. then after we opened up presents. lisa and laura gave me a set of the sex and the city dvds, mom and dad gave me a GE water filter pitcher, which ive been wanting for about a year now lol. dad gave us each a picture from an artist up in haliburton, and i also got some sented candles from mom. oh! and we also each got a braclet from my dads dad and mom, whom we never see but every year ethel send us something. so all in all it was a nice christmas this year! then we watched lisas new dvd triplets of bellville funny movie! hehe then watched some tv, then jen came over for about half an hour. then mom woke up and turned on a christmas story, her favorite movie, was on tv, all day long! i waited for that one to end then we came home. im so crazy tired, i think im going to have a nap, then get up and watch sex and the city. if i wake up. tomorrow we are off to bobcaygen to see grandma and james. im going to be so bored! lol we always hate going cause we just sit on the couch and do nothing everytime lol. 6 hours in the car to do that isnt the greatest either lol. thats ok. it'll be good. ill make it good lol. anyways, im going for a nap, hoping that i waske up. merry christmas to everyone again and ill post later! :)

Merry Christmas Eve!!

Happy Christmas Eve!! So as some of u know tonight was my family christmas dinner, with my aunt two uncles sisters and mom and dad. (yes small family) i did the turkey and everything today. it went really well. everyone was in a great mood so guess what no fighting!! how great is that?! so great. lol so we ate then dad went home to let the dogs out and to give them their dnner. came back and well tried to park where my jetta was out front. lol got stuck, so uncle ed and lisa went and got him out of that. he came back and we opened presents. YAY presents hehe. i must say i really do love giving them more than getting them. but we done good this year i think with our gift giving and recieving. lisa and i got a Corningware set from aunt jackie and uncle ron to share, then umcle ed gave us all 35 bucks to shoppers drug mart lol. lots of chocolate for me!! bring on the christmas sales! lol and then mom and dad brought over a couple gifts for up to open. lisa and i got the best pjs in the world! from marks work warehouse. so cozy (just ask jen i got her a set as well) then mom also gave me a dominos set. thats kinda of an inside joke. when we first got the cottage mom and i went up alone, and we had completely nothing to do. since i killed my knee as well we couldnt even go out and walk. so all we had was apile of ikea boxes and dominos. so we ended up playing for i think 4 hours straight lol. so thats the story of that. hehe so uncle ed is all safe in bed, and lisa and i being us stay up til all hours hehe. cant wait til tomorrow though. we're all going over to mom and dads for noon and having brunch there. then opening up all those presents, from mom, dad and sibblings. im sure a couple from the puppies as well. maddies first christmas! should be interesting to see what she gets lol. dad let us know he got her training lessons at mccans though lol. so great. i know what will happen though, mom will take maddie, come home give up on maddie and make friday do it lol. poor little friday after 10 years of being a little angel that she is, i dont think she needs it. so now i must go to bed cause i cant wait for tomorrow to find out what im getting. hehe since i didnt ask for anything this year im very curious to see what people have got me. :o) so, to all of u that read this tomorrow or something, have a great christmas day and i hope i'll see ya around!

Wednesday, December 22, 2004

im really that disposable eh?

So, kay im really upset. maybe cause i didnt think jason would actually stoop to that level. i know hes one to run away from his problems but i dunno maybe after 8 years, i thought i was something more to him. all week ive had this thought in the back of my mind that jason has put me on block, cause its jason, unless on vacation or dead, hes not away from the computer. so i went on my other msn, and oh there it be jason online. so i asked james, silly me, should of guessed he would do the same to james. so i asked leighton if jason was on his list. wow, i think im in a state of shock. no im hurt. i was hurt about the fact that he didnt show for the catering job. u know typical jason thing, just say u forgot, but really didnt want to come. fine i can handle that. but when u put me on block because ur trying to avoid something?! thats just not right in any way. by now he should know, im a person of few words, i get my point across and i dont yell nor do i get upset when infront of people. infact jen kept telling me i cant just do nothing this time and i need to say something, about how friends dont do that to friends etc... well guess what its gone to another level that i dont think anyone does to anyone especially when u havent even talked about why the other person may be upset with you. but hey i guess im just like the rest in that i can be tossed to the side and forgotten about. fine. and jason if u read this. good i had to let u know how u've made me felt, and if u dont talk to me i can handle that, god only know ive gone threw enough crap, i can still keep my head high. but you've hurt me to the point i just dont know what to say, and to the point where i'll probably cry over this when it settles in a couple days. congrats.

p.s Merry Christmas

Tuesday, December 21, 2004

yay to new undergarments! :op

Oh to the new bra! it is so great when u find a new comfortable bra! lol for 20 bucks noless and its a brand name! how great it feels. and to new cute little undies as well! i love it hehe. i cant wait until tomorrow when i can actually try these things on hehe. to women who read this im sure u completely understand what im talking about. to the men... well sorry but its the truth, its like getting out that old comfy shirt or pants... so im not sure what happened to my today. i went to ship caes present out at mailbox etc. but they wanted 158 bucks so i said no to that and just mailed it normally. hope he gets its by his birthday in january lol. im listening to kylie right now and the song, i can't get u outta my head. i think its perfect for my mind set the past few days. i feel like dying, listening to all these songs and such just feeling completely alone. but not at the same time. i've started cleaning for the holidays. i havent even thought about the fact that im doing christmas dinner this year on the 24th. i think its more like moms doing it and serving it at my house. seems the way she like to think shes in contorl of everyones life. *rolling my eyes at this* omg im i so cant get his trip out of my head now! i better go soon. im so nervous about it though, its going to be happy, sad, and everything else all combined into one lol. ok im going to clean or theres no way that christmas will ever get done. and when its family thats so picky about cleanliness i should of started last year lol.

YAY SNOW!

tuesday morning. so far its been a good week. ive been up and alert. which i havent done in a awhile. and it was at 10am! hehe (thats good for me) last night i went to bed at midnight so i could get a good rest. ive been so exusted this past week. i think i was really stressing out about mom and dads catering job. so, i was awoken by the noise of shovels. the best sound to me. it means it snowed and it stayed. i knkow i know, most of you dont like it. but what is really so bad about it? its pretty, and fluffy and u can throw it at people. sure it means its cold out, but think if youre having a bad hair day or a bad all over day, whip on that scarf and hat and no one will know! hehe i must admit for some reason the cold really got to me on sunday. it was just bitter out! i'm the one that can usually go coatless for most of the winter and not be bothered by it. so i've decided in this past week or so, that im going to go to brazil. as mom said to me the other day, i need to go on a vacation. and i said u know what, i think im going to brazil. i think that was it lol. pretty much, could be a chance in a life time, and why not? of course there is the Cae factor of it all. but it makes me nervous, excited, and teriffied. so i was telling this to leighton last night and he said he'd come with me. i brought up the whole, i need someone to come with me thing and such and he offered to come, so i think if this all really happens, its going to be fun. even though i'll be a mess. lol so if anyone else wants to come, we could make a big adventure! hehe. yes im crazy i know. omg im crazy. lol anyways i have to get a package out and i have to get groceries for my catering job on thursday.

Saturday, December 18, 2004

*sigh* home :o)

so its 11:30pm lisa and have just put leftovers away, and im starting to relax. my feet are beyond hurting at this point. and my back for that fact. all was successful. at least the dinner was. mom was being as she was yesterday. completely childish and ignoring me. so i said fine i can't take this, and walked out. i was so upset. i was crying pretty much all the way home. then dad phoned while i was driving home. lisa told me to call him so i did he yelled at me, so i hung up cause well truth, yelling gets u nowhere. so he phoned back after he calmed himself and i did the complete opposite and balled my eyes out. he told me to come back. i said no of course being me. its one thing when mom gets on my nerves, but when i sit there talking to her in a normal voice, asking her to please not do something and she has her back turned to me and ignores me, it just really shows me a lack of respect that i dont think i deserve. in the words of james.. **WARNING** up coming rant on jason..lol so anyways, i came back, and dad kinda had my back as he came in the kitchen and really helped me out. which i really didnt like, cause i would never ask my client to help me cater their own party. but i had to why u might ask? because my wonderful server jason decided not to come. thanks u jason if ur reading this. to say the least im a little upset. and hope the christmas party was worth it. and maybe im a little too upset over this. i could be because god only know i take my catering serious, and i shouldnt mix personal feelings with business. but there are a couple things this week that have just really gotten to me. thank god that his mother called to tell me that he wasnt coming, after i left a message for him. i almost broke down again. this time i was REALLY depending on him and lisa to help me out cause my knee and everything i just can't do all that i could before. as a friend im hurt, beyond belief. as a boss, i question calling him for the next time. so thats that for tonight on him, im not even going to start in about the whole christmas present s**t. so after all, the night turned out pretty, except mom coming in every five minutes telling us that people wanted seconds, even though it was mom who wanted seconds. surprised? no. lol. so everyone told us how great a meal it was and took some of my cards and things. i escaped with a couple burns, one on my thumb, is pretty bad. i think it would be called a fourth degree when u loose layers of skin? and really its not painful im shocked! my feet hurt more so probably tomorrow the thumb will hurt lol. so im gonna go have a bath.. or shower depending on the looks of the bath at this point, and im going to maybe have some mashed taters and gravy cause i havent eatten today. and james if u read this i miss u lol... i got so used to talking to u over the past couple weeks and now ur not here it makes me :( hehe. and on the upper, laura lisa and i were all together tonight and not a single fight! YAY sisterly love! hehe k gotta go now. bye!

Friday, December 17, 2004

tired i am..

So i dont think im as tired as i feel. but i feel like i could pass out lol. its mostly my eyes, and i think thats just my eyes being stupid this week. *note to self remember to take eye drops* so today i went to moms at about 1pm. i got a lot done. and mom and i were surprisingly nice to eachother i think. we had our little spats but thats just cause she can't just leave me alone to work. i know she always wants to help and stuff, but ignoring what i ask her to do isnt really helping me lol. so of course she hadn't gone for her nap when i got there so she stayed up and kinda got on my nerves about an hour and half after i arrived. i pretty much left to go and get the rest of the groceries when mom asked me if she could have half of my bagel cause i rewrapped it and left it on the counter. i said no, cause i was planning on eatting it later on. cause well thats me. i dont eat a lot at one time more like something every 2-3 hours. so im not sure why but at this point, she took my bagel into the dinning room shoved half of it in her mouth and fed it to the dogs. i was like well that was mature mother. and i was like well i guess no more bagel for leanne. friday seemed to enjoy it though. so at that point i was like ok break time, time for leanne to get away from mom. and i did my groceries lol. i came back about an hour later cause she said she was going for her nap, but somehow i think she forgot that conversation. i came back and she asked me where i had gone, and she called my house and such asking when i was coming back... i just don't know about that woman! anyways, so i continued cooking when i got back with mom in a better mood. cooked my chickens which looked really good! mom cut them while i was gone which sacres me cause i havent seen them. so tomorrow all i have left to do is my last minute veggies. the pork and reheat the chicken at meal time. i think ill be pretty set. i just hope all goes well. and smoothly. the nice part is i wont have to do dishes since they'll be rented. i love rentals hehe. so then sunday i'll have a rest day. then i have to clean and set up the house for the family dinner. im determined to have my holiday party. maybe ill do something on the 28th or something? its a thought. (input on this would be great) anyways i should probably really go to bed now since ive got another crazy day tomorrow.

Thursday, December 16, 2004

wow ive been slackin!

so i've just realized that its been a week since i blogged last so i thought id let my thoughts out today. i'm not sure if they be long or not, but we'll see. hehe so what have i been up to.... well, i guess saturday i didnt do a lot. sunday, evening i went to james' place watched survivor with heidi and james. then we came back here. monday, well that was odd lol. got together with jen, went to harvey and came back here again. james and jen played trivial pursuit 90's for like 3 hours lol. it was pretty funny. for some reason, maybe the three of us being completely overtired, but we couldnt stop laughing. so after that it was about midnight and i took jen homoe and went right to bed. then on tuesday i thought i had physio so i dropped off james in brantford to see some people and hand out christmas cards. then i went to physio, got in the parking lot and found my appointment sheet. realized that i didnt have to be there lol. so i went back and picked up james took him to his old work after he was done there i came home. then went to dads work, picked up some money for catering, dropped off some lights for laura. then we went to the mall for mom exchanged lisa present for the right one. then we watched Gosford Park. pretty funny movie. everyone having affairs with everyone else and then a lil twist at the end hehe. long but funny movie. anyways, christmas is coming sonner than i would of thought. it really doesnt feel like christmas this year. no snow, dont my shopping before the malls got crazy. didnt really need to wrap any presents this year. just jen and james. james gave me a cook book, and jen got me a foot spa. so great! so yesterday, i went to physio then took james home around supper time, nothing to exciting. today i went to physio again. it turned out pretty good. that might be in part of mister cutie being there. what was it dave? nothing like getting you knee molested by a cutie lol. and now i have to go to the grocery store, get some food for moms catering. then ill have a nap probably then start cooking. ugh i just feel so blah this week. i hope im not getting sick or something.

Do you realize?

Do You Realize ? that you have the most beautiful face
Do You Realize ? we're floating in space -
Do You Realize ? that happiness makes you cry
Do You Realize ? that everyone you know someday will die
And instead of saying all of your goodbyes - let them know
You realize that life goes fast
It's hard to make the good things last
You realize the sun doesn't go downIt's just an illusion caused by the world spinning round
Do You Realize ?
Do You Realize ?
that everyone you know
Someday will die
And instead of saying all of your goodbyes - let them knowYou realize that life goes fastIt's hard to make the good things last
You realize the sun doesn't go down
It's just an illusion caused by the world spinning round
Do You Realize? - that you have the most beautiful face
Do You Realize?

Saturday, December 11, 2004

Friday all to myself... and romeo

ahh so friday, quiet and to myself today. but very chatty to anyone who passes on msn. (poor people hehe) anyways what did i do... well woke up around 10am talked to cae off and on for about 3 hours lol. did laundry had a shower made lunch, vacuumed, moved furniture etc inbetween. mom phoned me around 2 asked if i would go to Mapleview and pick up some christmas gifts she had ordered in. so went to moms picked up her interac, went to mapleview, got the presents, some guy buffed my nail, said it'll be this nice for three weeks and tried to sell me some product. good thing i didnt have any money or my interac on me cause i was thinking about buy some, but told him id come back later if i could. so then went to moms, handed her all the stuff and left. i was shocked! she just said ok thanks have a good night and i was off lol. then i came home for about an hour. realized i didnt get james or jen their present while i was out. so i headed out again hehe. went to hmv, bought me a sarah mclauclan afterglow, and the dvd swingers. and i found triplets of belleville cd and the best of triumph dvd so bought those for mom. just add that into her christmas or birthday present lol. so then i went to mickey d's on my way home. i havent had mickey d's im monthes! it felt so wrong eatting it lol. ah well didnt feel like spending much or cooking. although im sure i could have gotten something much better for the same price anymore. so came home. watched 2 shows on the food network, then watched swingers. that movie is pretty darn funny!! i almost want them to come out with a second one to see what happens with mike! hehe. anyways so its 12:30 now and tomorrow, brings a new dayi think ill bring the christmas tree in from outside make lisa help me with that. needs to be dried out for a while. i dont know how fast that'll happen but if possible i'd like to at least get the lights on it tomorrow and set it up in the living room. pretty much i want to get all the decorating of this house out of the way this weekend cause i gotta get started on mom dinner party. so anyways, im babbley yet again and i must go sleep.

Wednesday, December 08, 2004

1 of 2000

Cystinosis is a rare disease that primarily affects children. Cystinosis is a genetic metabolic disease that causes an amino acid, cystine, to accumulate in various organs of the body. Cystine crystals accumulate in the kidneys, eyes, liver, muscles, pancreas, brain and white blood cells. Without specific treatment, children with cystinosis develop end stage kidney failure at approximately age nine.
Cystinosis also causes complications in other organs of the body. The complications include muscle wasting, difficulty swallowing, diabetes, and hypothyroidism. It is estimated that at least 2,000 individuals worldwide have cystinosis, thought exact numbers are difficult to obtain because the disease is often undiagnosed and/ or misdiagnosed.
Cystagon, new treatments, and research of Cystinosis are giving hope for a bright future for children and adults with Cystinosis. Over the last 20 years, the prognosis of a child born with Cystinosis has greatly improved. Scientists have mapped the Cystinosis gene, CTNS, to chromosome 17p13. The researchers reported that the locus D17S829 was homozygously deleted in 23 out of 70 patients.
Cysteamine (Cystagon) has been approved by the Food and Drug Administration (FDA) for standard treatment of Cystinosis. Cysteamine is a cystine-depleting agents that lowers Cystine levels within the cells. Cysteamine has proven effective in delaying or preventing renal failure. Cysteamine also improves growth of children with Cystinosis. In view of the harmful effects of chronic cystine accumulation, and the indications of the effectiveness of Cysteamine therapy in various tissues and organ systems, oral Cysteamine should be used by Post-transplant Cystinosis patients.
Cysteamine eye drops dissolve corneal cystine crystals and relieve photophobia.
There are three forms of Cystinosis. Infantile Nephropathic Cystinosis is the most severe form of the disease. Children with Cystinosis appear normal at birth, but by 10 months of age, they are clearly shorter that others their age. They urinate frequently, have excessive thirst, and often seem fussy. At 12 months, they haven't walked and bear weight only gingerly.
One of the major complications of Cystinosis is renal tubular Fanconi Syndrome, or a failure of the kidneys to reabsorb nutrients and minerals. The minerals are lost in the urine. The urinary losses must be replaced. Generally, they are picky eaters, crave salt, and grow very slowly. If left untreated, this form of the disease may lead to kidney failure by 10 years of age.
In people with Intermediate Cystinosis or Juvenile (adolescent) Cystinosis, kidney and eye symptoms typically become apparent during the teenage years or early adulthood. In Benign or Adult Cystinosis, cystine accumulates primarily in the cornea of the eyes.
Treatment of Cystinosis
Cystinosis is treated symptomatically. Renal tubular dysfunction requires a high intake of fluids and electrolytes to prevent excessive loss of water from the body (dehydration). Sodium bicarbonate, sodium citrate, and potassium citrate may be administered to maintain the normal electrolyte balance. Phosphates and vitamin D are also required to correct the impaired uptake of phosphate into the kidneys and to prevent rickets. Carnitine may help to replace muscular carnitine deficiency.
Cysteamine (Cystagon) has been approved by the Food and Drug Administration (FDA) for standard treatment of Cystinosis. Cysteamine is a cystine-depleting agents that lowers cystine levels within the cells. Cysteamine has proven effective in delaying or preventing renal failure. Cysteamine also improves growth of children with Cystinosis. In view of the harmful effects of chronic cystine accumulation, and the indications of the effectiveness of Cysteamine therapy in various tissues and organ systems, oral Cysteamine should be used by Post-transplant Cystinosis patients.
Cysteamine eye drops dissolve corneal cystine crystals and relieve photophobia.
How is Cystinosis Inherited?
Every person's body is made up of millions of tiny structures called cells. Each cell comes with a full set of instructions which tell the cell what to do and how to make our bodies work. The instructions are called genes, and they are made from a chemical called DNA. Genes usually come in pairs, and they determine everything about our bodies. For example, certain genes determine the colour of our eyes, while other genes determine our blood type.
Genes are often called the units of heredity because the information they contain is passed from one generation to the next. We all get one gene in each pair from our mothers and the other gene in the pair from our fathers. In this way our bodies work with a combination of instructions inherited from both our parents. Parents have no control over which genes get passed to their children.
Cystinosis is called a recessive genetic disease, because parents do not exhibit symptoms, but they each carry a recessive gene which may cause Cystinosis in their children. The genetic path of Cystinosis is therefore impossible to predict, and a cystinotic child is almost always a shock to parents. The recessive gene may lie dormant for many generation until suddenly two people with the defective gene have children.
Each time two such Cystinosis carrier have a child together, there is a1-in-4 chance (25% risk) of having a child with Cystinosis. and every healthy sibling of a child with Cystinosis has a 2-in-3 chance (66% risk) of being a carrier, like his parents.

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Tuesday, December 07, 2004

just need to get it off my chest...

ok first of all... this has nothing to do with my rant but james has a one himself and u can see that at cdntennispro.blogspot.com. k with that outta the way... my rant..

ok im getting really really sick of this. my sister does absolutely nothing to help me outaround here. shes become completely dependant on me to clean up around here. like i asked her i swear a month ago just to clean the bathroom. nope not done yet (ive done it since a couple times, dont worry about it lol) i really dont ask alot i dont think... little 5 minute chores here and there. can u change the light bulbs? no had to get jason to help me with that one. can u put the dishes away. nope.. can u clean the pan after using it? nope! put ur dishes in the dishwasher. nope nope and nopers! i get so frustrated with it i want to cry. it imbarasses me to even have my friends over. ive actually said no to people cause i dont want them to see this place at times. im sure its not as bad as i think it is, and im not the cleanest person in the world but a little help would be nice when u live in a place, its part ur responsiblity so just help out thats all im asking. im completely not looking foward to winter and having her here all the time so i can pick up everything. im so tired of it.

so anyways, ive been having a good few days. james came over on sunday. we went bowling with trevor, jason and jen. so much fun. i was rather hyper so that always makes it interesting lol. then james and i just vegged. went to meet jen at 2 for her break and a bite to eat. then i had my interview all went well i guess. they said they'll phone at the end of the week so heres hoping. i wish i could phone and just tell them how much i would love to have this job cause i think it would be lots of fun hehe. but i think that might make me look kinda bad hehe.

k its like 20 minutes after i typed last on here, so im gonna go cause i forgwt what i was going to write about hehe. p.s what is up with this weather??

Friday, December 03, 2004

oh lovely evening with mom again...

so today, somehow today went really fast. it started with lisa waking me up. which can be some what annoying cause her and laura live to really annoy me to get me up i swear lol but it was with a phone number for someone who called me about a job, so i couldnt get mad. so i phoned the lady back and i have an interview on monday :) yay its only that the pizza pizza call centre but i think it'll be lots of fun hehe. then lets see later on mom phoned and asked me to go shopping with her. im not sure why i do it to myself everytime. its just a series of fights for like 3 hours. we went to the mall she bought my "christmas" outfit for me for christmas. i just hope i can wear it before hand. then we went over to markwork warehouse, and i think mom bought me some pj there, i loved them they were so cute! and well, she told me to look the other way when at the cash so im 99.99% sure thats what she got me. i really hate knowing what im getting for christmas and mom cant keep anything from me, especially when she buys it in front of me. doesnt leave much to the imagination. then we went to pier one looked at candles didnt find what she wanted. so we went over to the garden gallery and bought candles there. good thing they were on sale hehe. looked at fake christmas trees. i guess moms big thing it the fake tree for our living room this year. i dunno if she does get it ill miss the real one i think. but then next year she wants to take the tree for her place. so confused. so then we headed home. but first she insisted that we stop at fortinos so she could get me groceries. i tried insisting that she not go cause i had to do all my groceries and after two hours of shopping my mother is hopeless. but no we had to go so we go. i did about half my groceries and of course mom wanted to leave. so that was it, she freaks out we leave. now i have to go back tomorrow get the rest. but always good that she bought some for us. i guess she was in the spend money mood this weekend cause shes takin lisa out tomorrow. so we finally got home at 9 and here i am, been watching tv and makin dinner since i got home. no one really around to talk to tonight, so i veg as per usual :) think about tomorrow, i figured out what to get james, jen and cae, so i think ill venture out and get those, and then get a couple groceries. im off to watch Monster. talkie later.

Thursday, December 02, 2004

whats up pussy cat?

thursday evening. what to say.. im tired hehe. i want to have a nap but if i have a nap, i feel like im not going to sleep tonight. lots of things have been going through my head, and i have to thank jen this week for being there to talk to. its almost a relief that i have someone to talk to about it now. its really all a question of what im needing to do to move fwd again. im kinda of at a stand still in what i want to know. i know i have to do something with food. im just not happy doing anything but. i think i get too bored with anything else. so now i gotta figure out how to deal with medical issues and find something to work at, at the same time. i guess thats really the hardest part though isnt it? anyways, on the good side of things, its decemeber hehe ive done 90% of my christmas shopping. i have james, jen and cae to get. i just have to figure those out. any ideas do tell! lol certain people are always so hard to buy for hehe. at least family is done. thats a big load off. got it all done with laura for under a 100 bucks each think thats pretty good hehe. just need snow hehe. where is the snow this year? well no i just need snow over the christmas week that would be good hehe. anyways, ive got some numbers to do with moms catering stuff. i might write more later.