Poor lil' Alex didnt win today :(

so Leannes exciting today... basically i had a pretty good day. but wasnt really eventful. i woke up and took 95% of my pants to mom to hem. as we had planned. so i got there around 1:30ish she was packing stuff for the cottage. so she measured a few of my pants and gave me a list for me to do. just to save time, she sent me out, so i went to the huge Burlington Canadian Tire. I love that store. looked at some car stuff of course, then got mom her tupperware stuff. then went to petsmart, got some puppy food for maddie. then did some groceries. fun fun. mom started my pants at this time, and her machine is broken so i have no pants for a while. i give up maybe i should just take it to a stich it or something. so then i left again and went to kirks to check up on his kitty Oscar. then i came home for a couple hours. then went back to mom and dads. which turned out to be kinda nice. mom was in a good mood so was dad. of course they did they typical job stuff with me which is really starting to drive me nuts. but after mom left for a little and dad and i got to talk and that was nice. i came home feeling like a weight had been lifted off my shoulders. At the same time, i see so much of myself in my father, good and bad lately. its kinda weird. i guess u can never get away from it eh? so mom and i got talkin about the week coming up. Monday i have to take my car in. well call them to see if they'll change my light bulb and then book it to get so much more done. i think the bill for that car will be around a thousand to get everything done. *crazy* i wish i could put that into my car in so many other ways. oh well... get that all done up, maybe find myself a cheaper diesil mechanic... that should be a chore and a half. then tuesday off to niagara falls probably, then wednesday going to the cottage to help mom take stuff up, im gonna stop in toronto to sick kids pick up some meds, then meet her there, betch ya ill beat her even with the pass though toronto lol... then i guess she wants me to stay there til sunday with her. we'll see how long i last. then ya! sunday! first hockey game of the season! World Cup Canada against Russia. I must say it was pretty darn funny when mom asked the four of us who was going to go with her and we all said no were going to the hockey game lol. oh u should of seen the look on her face lol. wait a second, it just acured to me that some how ive been suckered into going with crazy mother to the cottage for like 4 days. shes going to be crazy, oh no what am i going to do?! maybe ill say ill come up thursday and then come home saturday. yes that sounds better. we'll see bout this. oh well, i think im gonna go to bed now. im sleepy yet im really awake. oh well night night.

Where are you?

ok so friday night. pretty typical i guess. went out with jen to the movies and dinner. thats the plan. so we go to Swiss chalet on Guelph Line and Fairview. dinner was good. fast as always and for some reason was really enjoyable tonight. the chicken was perfectly done and so were my fries. so i decided to save some to bring home with me. i cant wait hehe. i dunno why i even bother having them give me a menu though. its always the same. quarter chicken with fries, dark meat and diet coke. jens the same but reg. coke. then for dessert if theres room which is not very often, chocolate eruption cheese cake. mmmm so good! then we had a little time to kill so jen and i headed to old navy. that was fun. jen spent more money on clothes. and jen yes i know ur probably going to read this so.. STOP SPENDING UR MONEY ON CLOTHES AND SHOES! yoou need to save it for school now. lol maybe i have clothes envy, not to be comfused with penis envy. yes thats right coMfused. (see i can admit my mistakes lol) so lets see, where was i, oh yes old navy... so jen ended up buying some shirts, like 4 of the same ones. i would have bought 2 but this is jen were talking about. jen i swear if u took ur clothes u would have one outfit for everday day for like 6 monthes lol. shes like my Carrie of my life. So then after that, we went to the movies, at showcase on harvester rd. man its been so long since ive been there. but it was alright. we went to see Little Black Book. the movie itself was kinda cute. the people to see the movie were F*C*KIN driving us crazy. behind us was a row of about 19 year old girl. they i could tolerate. chatting before the movie and a little through the movie. but them and the most immature 16 year olds that were sitting to our direct left i could not. ever funny part in the movie this girl have this laugh that after the part she would laugh just to piss people off. and her and her friend were talking through the whole movie. holy want to kill. ive never been so annoyed in my life! im not easily annoyed and i think they hit the max. well ok maybe not cause i didnt turn and scream at them which i should of, but jen jen did that for me lol. (thanks jen! even though it was in my ear the one time) so we got out of there without murdering but barely. so then of course i never really want to go straight home so we went for a little drive around burlington. which always is interesting to see weird people. We hsd 99.9 the mix playing on the radio blaring that out and singing along to what ever club they were playing at tonight. went down brant street and on lakeshore we stopped for some ice cream... mmm ice cream chocolate peanut butter with peanut butter cups. so good! so then what did we do, oh yes we drove, i started to drive home. and this weird weird guy i swear he could have been married. in a chrysler, sebring or new intrepid i think... anyways we were beside him at a light, and i looked over and he was staring at us. i was like okie a lil freaked. and i laughed and then jen looked at him and he had his lips puckered at us. like what the hell. lol i think i got to 4th gear in like 10 seconds flat to get far far away from him lol... laughing the whole way as always. so jen and i continued to listen to our tunes after that. and so now im home. thinking how i wish i could talk to certain people but theyre no where to be found. or even better have them here cause it would be nice, im not ready to sleep yet and would love to go for a walk or something and well i wont by myself specially this close to hess on a night like tonight. jen and i went down Hess and there are some very drunk people down there tonight! lol So pretty much all in all the evening was really fun. but im sitting here wishing i had someone to cuddle with tonight. i hate going to movies sometimes. anyways i guess ill go to bed now. i have to see the crazy mother tomorrow while she hems my pants for me. (need lots of rest for that!) p.s. beware of the full moon coming this weekend i think. i go a lil crazy and sometimes others do too!

try as i may, i cant trust men...

ok so its almost 1 am. ive been talking to this guy for a couple hours, and finally i send him my picture. i dont get the usual nothing after it, he says its pretty. when guys say this to me i feel there is definately something wrong. cute yes maybe i can get that, but usually not til u know me. but then he does send me his picture. this dude is just yum ok. like omg yum. so this leads me to believe he wants something. i.e. sex (if u didnt figure that out) this doesnt mean i dont think i deserve this or something, well k maybe it does. but it just doesnt fit into the typical guy who goes for me, or has someone like me beside them. so this just all leads to its after 11pm and hes horny lol. so basically i asked him why he wants to meet me and it wasnt for that reason then i went quiet and he said he was going to bed and that was that, but i just dont know. to many times have men let me down so im fully prepare that hes never going to want to talk to me again. and now im going to bed cause im tired and i have to go pee.

sorry james...

so it seems that a lot of people read my blog! it also seems a lot of my friends are insecure! if it upset u that much at least i know that you care, but i didnt mean it for my closest friends, there is a reason u are my closest friends, and u should know if i did have some sort of problem i would 99% chance that i would say it to ur face. i guess im just at that feeling at the moment where im not appriciated like i feel i should be. my blogs to me are like theropy, i just need to voice things sometimes and sometimes it comes out in a wrong way, ive never been the greatest at expessing myself i guess, or word it wrong? and as jason says we all use our friends for certain reasons and i guess in turn thats true, or they wouldnt be friends right? but that blog was more about using a friend almost to abusing it, if that makes sense. so to james and jason, i didnt mean that to u or want to hurt u by it. and that i am sorry about.

i'm a person too with feelings...

so the question on my mind at the moment is, Is our friends really our friends? like lately i've been doubting this from some people. do people just say theyre friends because you provide them with something they want? i.e. a drive here or there, or just to waste time etc... like the people i call friends, i call them that because i like them. i love to just hang out and veg or go out and do something with them. i feel a lot of the time i'm only liked because i do something for them. either have a place for them to crash, or drive them somewhere or pretty much ill go out of my way to make their lives easier. i feel like the people that im closest to lately have just been around me when they get something out of the deal which isnt me. im not a person who needs something in return, but you know sometimes its just really nice, to not have to worry about anything. or just recieving something for no reason. maybe i just am a sucker for this i dunno. or maybe ...maybe frig i dunno. or just ask for once. if you know me, youll know that i'll usually say yes unless i really have something else planned, but for once it would be nice to be asked, or offered something in return. make me feel like im worth something to you. not just someone you walk all over. because i need to feel that sometimes. and even though i hide things pretty well, and usually dont mind about petty little things most people would argue or blow up into something that doesnt need to be, i do have feelings and would like the respect of that.

what to do what to do....

so, its friday. i slept over at mom and dads last night, to look after the dogs today. i wasnt really asked to do todays "dog sitting" i was basically told, but thats ok. why? cause theyre my puppies and i love them, and mom isnt here. :) i just came home from rock chapel. had some fun up there. well at least maddie did. she had fun playing with another doggie before we left. it looked like a mix of a lab and i dunno something little. but they were playing with a stick and friday and i just sat there waiting til she was done. but she didnt stop so i had to tell her that we were going lol. poor lil maddie. i think it got some energy out of her though. so what else. oh! i would just like to state, that i did not steal james' pillows! he left them in my room. and one day he will get them back lol... maybe tonight who knows. not i, i say not i! so this weekend in dundas is the cactus festival. note to all dont try and get down the main streets theyre all closed! they had the parade on last night and mom had this brilliant idea that she was going to have all of us over for dinner, but she didnt think that we all had to drive here. so all the main streets and streets to the main streets were closed off. luckly we've lived here for 18 years or so and know our way around! :) So, lets see, what to do this weekend, anyone got any hints? i really dont feel like sitting around the house. i think i need something new. hmmmm... i dunno im gonna go think....

YAAAAAAAA TEA PARTY!

well lets see whats up with life this week. well not a lot hehe. this weekend was busy and pretty good. i got together with james and jason. i think i needed it :) i picked up james saturday, we went mini putting and out for dinner, and he spent the night here. jason went to hess and also spent the night here. it was nice to see them both since i never really do anymore. sunday i dropped off james and his friend adam at the movies and jason and i went to mom and dads and took the dogs up to rock chapel then went to moms place and dropped them off and went over to jasons for a lil had some peach pie :) checked the babies to see how they were growing. then james called and i went to pick him up again. and dropped off adam off then james and i went off to brantford to drop him off again. so all in all i had a pretty good weekend with my boys :) today i cleaned. the house looks much better which makes me happy. i just wish lisa would help me out some time in her life. but we all have dreams right? what else... on mom wants a family "meeting" on thursday. oh god im not looking fwd to it. shes probably going to talk to us about the cottage though. oh ya did i mention, we have a cottage? lol so exciting! i hope to go up the second week in september. lets mom get the first week crazies out. the dogs are totally going to love it hehe i cant wait. Lisa also found a dog sled place in haliburton so thatll be lots of fun in the winter. what else has been going on.. hmm gotta hand out resumes this week i think. something part time would be nice. part time cottage partime work hehe life would be pretty good eh? hehe... maybe ill get to work on some business plan or something. i think i just need to find help with that. anyways, i guess thats about it for now. back to the olympics i go... oh did i mention the new tea party album is out tomorrow?! IM SO EXCITED! hehe and k-os is on the 24 but im not so excited about there hehe.

todays a better day :o)

good evening world! so lets see, what to say today... i dunno... wasnt feeling the greatest throught the day. pretty much just didnt want to move. lol but this evening i feel much better. jen came over and we went to the whistling walrus on upper james. (very good perogies) 1/2 price apps on tuesdays after 5pm i think til 9. it was a good outting :) then i took jen to learn standard! yes thats right jen driving standard. terrifing thought at first but with in 30 minutes she wasnt stalling the car lol... and she loves my car lol. pff who wouldnt! j/k lots of people wouldnt is my bet. anyways. shes hooked friday we might actually get to second! and i mean gear, not base cause ew thats just not right. *note i have to buy the maroon5 cd* anyways so we came back around 7:45 and watched an hour of friends. then watched outback jack. HE PICK NATALIE YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!! that made jen and i very happy. let me just tell all you men out there. trust us women at least when it comes to other women. we know! the fake from the really, the bitch from the sweetheart... we know! and thats not saying we know all, although im sure there are plenty of women out there that think they do, but they dont, me included. so then we watched sex in the city after that. our weekly addiction. it kinda raised something in me this week. the fact they mentioned stuff about sitting at a restaurant eatting by yourself. ive never been able to do that. a movie or a restaurant. i think this might be my goals among others, before the end of the year. oi those other things... lets see what else is on the brain. do you ever get in the periods of time where ur talking to a certain person like everyday over the net or a certain friend etc, and maybe its just routine, i dunno but then one day theyre not there when theyre suppose to and its almost like, oh poo that sucks. and then u end up waiting, and then u have to do something else and u feel almost this empty feeling for a lil as in maybe 20 minutes or something. but something just seems wrong with your day? i kinda had one of those days today. but it ended ok cause i ended up talking to that person lol. but i was just wondering if i was the only person who thought this hehe. anyways lets see. tomorrow i think im going to investigate takin my red seal with timmy. maybe get some resumes out there, pick up some meds make din din for lisa. im gonna make chicken boobs stuffed with goat cheese, spinach, and sundried tomato, throw in some basil? i think i will. what should i put on the side? herbd roasted taters? hmmmm make a salad. its all coming together! anyways i guess i better go sleepy now im a lil tired. *yawn*

i didnt know listening was such a skill...

so its sunday night. ive just gotten home from my parents. i feel like crying. my mother said something to me at the dinner table about getting a job. of course i snapped back. then dad blew up on me. i swear to god my mother does this just to cause fights. she loves it when people get into arguments. she is completely her father. drinks doesnt listen has a nap for hours in the after noon then doesnt listen even more, bugs me for money i may owe her, just because shes spent too much this week etc... as dad say she has all she wants ignore her. but its hard when its everyday. anyways thats not whats really bothering me. in part it is. dad blew up saying to me that im just another hand out. i know how he feels about people getting money from the government etc. but when u blow up on ur daughter about it, it just really hurts. i cant help it at this moment. he used to be the only person i could go to and talk to and now i cant even do that for five minutes. it seems everytime i do something else happens. has either parent stop to think, hey wait, my daughter has never been lazy about getting a job before maybe, just maybe theres something else going on that we havent thought of? or MAYBE! the parents should sit down and LISTEN and really LISTEN without putting opinions in their head, with their daughter and say Leanne, are you ok? in which i may reply no, im not ok. im terrified.

to 5 Comfort foods catagory #1 Soups

Campbells Cream of Soup with Saltine crackers
Grandmas Borche
Grandmas Beef and Barely soup
Cream of potato (with bacon in it)
Moms cream of broccoli with cheddar cheese

p.s.

wow that was a lot of writing.

home at last!

hello again everyone! i feel like its been so long since ive written a blog. so even though i really dont have much to say i thought id write a lil something. ive just gotten home from ottawa. it went pretty well. although at times between alli and jen i thought i was going to scream. but i remained cool. lol but i think i did the same to them, im sure. we got to jens at about midnight, and i used her potty. im gonna miss my lil bed buddy, but im certainly happy to be in my own bed for the second time in one week. even though i like to go away, its nothing like coming home to the normal life, no matter how much i bitch about it! LOL and omg romeo just jumped straight up like two feet in the air cause i move my foot. that was the funniest moment since ive been home. So lets see what did jen and i do in ottawa? well lets see, we started off with breakfast at dennys, then we went to the parliment buildings and got the next tour tickets, but it was 2 hours away, so we decided to go shopping on sparks street for a 2 hours. but then we decided we didnt want to do the parliment buildings cause we both have been there. so then, we went to the mint at around 4 ish? we figured we would have enough time to do that before going to pick up alli, but then the next tour was at 6pm so that just wouldnt have worked. so we went to get alli. and we waited a lil for alli. then we went out to dinner. where did we go... wait it'll come to me.... buffalo charlies? i think thats the name. they were pretty good! i reccomend the spinach dip! went home. slept. then the next day, my favorite day! we started by going to Coras. if no one has heard of coras, there is one opening up in oakville soon. best breakfast ever!!!! waffles, crapes, eggs, whatever u want. i always get the banana blast. its bananas, and nutella wraped in a crape with whip cream on top. a lil piece of heaven i say! then we went to the mint after finding our way there cause i kinda ended up in Hull Quebec and had to find our way back. but it was only about a 20 minute delay in plans lol. so at about 2pm we were finished that and then AND THEN!!! we went to the hershey chocolate factory! hmmm so good! i spent 61 bucks and change lol... keep in mind that was partly alli's chocolate too. about 25 bucks worth of alli's chocolate lol... then i got some jolly ranchers for laura my sister, so ill have to take those to her tomorrow (or today as some may say) and ya that was another fun getting lost trip on the way there we kinda went half an hour out of the way so had to turn around to take highway 7. (remember when in doubt always go with your instinct!) so then on the way home we picked up alli again. and she took me way out of the way. alli always takes me the long way home. it really drives me nuts. specially when thats all ive been doing for a week. like i love driving but when uve had a pretty full day and ur starving and tired u dont wanna be going three times the amount of time outta the way. but eventually we ended up at monkey joes. mister andrew the cute waiter boy helped us, but thats besides the point. they had some awesome food there. i think jen and i were just happy to go and not have the same ol' road house stuff as here. u know how u go to all these different restaurants around here like the collins, kelseys, montanas and stuff like that and theyre really all the same just different names? in ottawa theyre all different! imagine that! so then after dinner, i kinda reteached alli how to drive standard. it was going pretty good, but then alli had a lil more confidence and decided to ignore me, and completely drove me up the wall. i was trying to teach her how not to ride the clutch when coming to a stop etc, she didnt stall or anything but just a little too dependent on that clutch. jens my next battle with the standard, that might get a lil crazy lol. but i have faith in my lil jen that she can do it! anyways, so then we went for pure gelato, mmmm so yummy! and then went home just in time for sex in the city and outback jack. really for sex in the city we could kinda care less about jack but hes on afterwards, and kinda cute. i think its that dark hair blue eyes that get me everytime! then went to bed. then next day (last day/really yesterday/but today) jen and i just took our time leaving the house. we went back to monkey joes for lunch/breakfast at about 11:30ish? we went to the national art museum. it was actually pretty nice. we both felt very smart leaving that place. its amazing how different art makes u actually feel. we both came out thinking, that we didnt know we had those thoughts in our heads anymore lol. or more like we werent those sorta people lol. but we went and got our museum something or other in us for the year. could only stand about an hour or so of it but ut was really nice. then we walked back to the car. put more money in the meter and walked to the market. jen was wowed i think. lots of activity in that market. she got a lil henna tattoo done of her sag. sign. we stopped for a drink before hand also. i picked up some berries to bring home. which reminds me i should put them in the fridge. so then after that we were on our way home back to allis to pick up out chocolate so it wouldnt melt in the car. we got gayle and alli a little cat book as a thank you so we keft that for them. then it was back to "on the road again" we stopped in kingston at the swiss chalet for dinner then back "on the road again" *lil song playing in my head* i endured about 4 hours of jen singing to everything. i thought i was going to kill her, but i got about 30 minutes break when she tried to sleep. she was almost there until so ***hole cut me off while we were going about 120km. retards out there. but now im home and im happy. i got my chocolate, my bed and i get to sleep in tomorrow. maybe write out that postcard to mom that i picked up at the gallery today and its now 1:30am on the sot and im beat so im going sleppy sleep.