drivin home

the other day i was driving home from work in traffic, and there was this bright light in the sky. i didnt know what it was so i had to get pictures of it before it disappeared.

so sad to face the truth...

so hi hows it going? its 11, and my show just ended. i love it! its called greys anatomy and everytime i watch it, at some point i cry. lol i dunno if its good or not but i love the show. i think it hits my heart. im so sick of this dating thing. im completely loney and i hate it. like i wanted to come back upstairs and curl up beside them and just fall asleep. its probably cause this past week ive been on a couple dates and im craving all of that, that comes in a relationship with someone. maybe the fact that i've never been that comfortable. so i put my heart out there and i get nothing in return but some horny man just wanting sex or something. maybe im too upfront. i just say this is what i want and if u font have the time or feeling to give it to me they get scared and run away. i dunno but i need someone. soon. im sick of being brave and strong to take on the next day. i meet these totally cute, sweet people and with every person i meet i get closer to who i see myself with, but why do they treat me so well then just disappear? maybe i just want something too much. i dunno. im lost and am in need. how sad do i sound?!

blah weekend, maybe blah life...

oh to weekends... so the start to my weekend was interesting. Friday i got home from work and i really wanted to see the person i went on a date with earlier in the week. but i wasnt feeling the greatest. so i went to bed when i got home for about an hour and a half. Lisa woke me up to ask if i could drive her and laura to poker night for 7. she asked me at 10 to 7. i was kinda awake so i said sure. i jumped in the car and took them. of course if i take them though i have to pick them up. they didnt even ask. so then around 9 comes around and the guy i wanted to see wants to see me. and now. lol i felt the same way but i was stuck with lisa and laura. so i said well they should call me at about 10:30. this was at 9:30. so fine that was great. i called laura to leave a message that i had plans to go out and to phone as soon as possible. she didnt. so i phoned back at 10:15 and she answered and said "we'll we should almost be done, why?" im like well i have a date i'd like to go on. and she was like we'll go, take ur cell phone and ill call u to come pick us up. Is she insane?! if i ever said that to her do u think she would take that lightly? like ya Laura im going to show up at my date, 5 minutes later she would phone and be like "oh sorry gotta go!" i dont think so. so i remained talking to him over the net. by this time we were both a little upset cause we wanted to get together. so finally at midnight! i picked up lisa and laura, and went on the latest date in the world! lol but boy was i glad to go! hes so cute! and i was so happy to be there. i think theres something to going into a date, thinking its not going to lead anywhere, then it leads to more and so everything that happens is a good thing? maybe? hehe

anyways, so saturday, i went to moms and scanned some photos. were at about 202 photos now. i'm scanning all my grandparents photos into the computer so i can put them on disk for my aunt and uncle to have as well. its actually really neat! all these black and white wartime photos and stuff. its neat to see. maybe i;ll put a couple up when im done. after that i went to a 4 and a half hour staff meeting. oh my god! talk about kill me. i really didnt need to be there. it was all on selling and such and since im stock none of it really applied to me. even though i came up with most answers i think lol. i came home at 11 and went to bed at 12.

today, is dinner night at lauras. each of us do a dish for the evening. tonight im on appitizers. im going to make anjitos. i might eat them all. lol james and i were suppose to see a movie in 10 minutes. Water. i dont think thats happening since hes sleeping. maybe we'll get the 9pm show. so off i go to clean and go to the grocery store.

oh help...

its friday night. today i left work at 3 because my eyes were killing me. so i came home and by 5 i was in bed. lisa woke me up to drive her and laura to poker night at work. i was ok til i got home and my eyes are killing me again. its not 10 to 8 and i really want to go out. but the person i want to go out with is unreachable. no phone, no cell, no computer, except for at work i think. i want to go out. lol this is so impossible! maybe he'll get a vibe that im writting this and be like leanne wants to go out! and magically come online or call. its so frustrating lol. i havent felt like going out for anything in i swear monthes! and now that i want to i can't. i even have a new sweater i bought today at work that i want to wear. *sigh* the mood goes wasted again. maybe i'll walk over to main desserts and get some cake. after i take a bath. that might be nice. yeap lifes exciting for me. gonna figure something out...

these quizes could be as addictive as this dip...

Your Inner Child Is Surprised

You see many things through the eyes of a child. Meaning, you're rarely cynical or jaded. You cherish all of the details in life. Easily fascinated, you enjoy experiencing new things.

How Is Your Inner Child?

i dunno? is it me?

Your Birthdate: May 30

You have the type of personality that people either love or hate. You're opinionated, dramatic, intense, and very outspoken. And some people can't get enough of you - they're totally addicted. Others, well, they wish you were a little more reserved. Your strength: Your flair Your weakness: If you think it, you say it Your power color: Scarlet red Your power symbol: Inverted triangle Your power month: March

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

wow i've been blog slacking!

so sorry people! Whats new in the life of Leanne... well..

First... I got a job! I'm working at Smart Set in Burlington Mall. I'm the official Stockperson. ya me! So anything new that comes in I just put my size aside and try on after work lol. its great! even though I really needed work clothes and shows and have pretty much bought everything i like in the store. 50% is not a bad deal if u ask me!! My boss is JenJen and my other boss Yonette is awesome as well. They're completely supportive to all their employees and this is really important to me. If I'm not feeling well or something, they just let me go at will. If I want to stay later I'm welcome to do that too. I'm kinda nervous about todays stock though. this week is suppose to be a big week, coming up to christmas sales and I'm afraid of running really behind. But we'll see.

Second... Mohamed is coming! I'm nervous, yet happy and excited. I think after he gets settled in and such in the area we're going to have alot of fun. He's coming in January and since Lisa doesnt want him staying in the house over night when he first gets here, Mom has graciously offered to take him for a few nights at her place. And of course I'll be staying there as well. So I'm every so greatful to mom for offering that cause I didnt know what to do otherwise. I was also shocked that she had offered that! But I think she understands that I just can't leave hom on the streets in the middle of januray especially when hes coming from Egypt.

Thirdly.. I think I might stay at mom and dads for a little while. being home is completely stressing me out to the point I don't want to be here. Or maybe its being tired and fatigued. Having James in the house is great, but I didnt think I would be stressed like this at all. I just want to be able to live in my home the way I always have and it posses some problems I think. Plus the bills are getting to me. Everything is going up this winter and I just dont think I can afford to be here anymore which is upsetting me. I still have to talk to Lisa about that. But I dont want to upset her. Maybe just figure a way to duke it out for the next 6 monthes or so. Anyways I guess thats it for now. I need to take my car in for an emissions test before i go to work. Didn't i just do that though?? oh well.