and this week...

good morning all! so what is up with my head? and Lauras for that fact! since friday ive had a lingering headache. and Laura has too. i just want to stay in bed and sleep. but then feel poopier if i do so. Im also worried about Fawky of course. Hes going through a really hard time at the moment and as im learning he shuts out people so they don't see him at this worst. of course me being me, i hate this cause i want to support whom ever as much as possible. and when they don't let me i worry to death. i guess i just have to wait it out. I'm not sure why but these past couple monthes are my meet the egyptian monthes lol. i can't figure it out. there moe (mohamad) that is coming back to canada in january that ive been helping out and talking to, then theres fawky, then one i started talking to again that was on my yahoo messenger that i havent had for about a month and then theres sam and kareem both of which are moes friends. which i dont really talk to but they know of me i guess. its kinda nutty. the one thing i've learned about egyptiians so far is that they have the biggest hearts in the world! its amazing! anyways..

so today im going to take james to work, then im going to go get the camera out of dads trunk! omg how that makes me cry. ya im going to spend 1200 bucks on a camera so it can sit in my trunk thats such a good idea and the best way to ruin it. i think im going to take a photography course. i love it and want to do so much more with the camera. maybe when i move out ill invest in a camera that way i wont have to put up with dad and mom buggin me about it all the time. after i pick up the camera im going to take it to get cleaned. theres that syupid spot on it and i want it gone lol. and i cant get it off. i think it might be on the inside lense and that i dont want to touch. after that i have to go to the bank. put money in etc.

yesterday i got bloodwork done. i hate going to new places! they poked me three times. my poor arm! amazingly its not really bruised. then after that i went to Bittners. My new car shop. Wow make my day! i got rid of that horrible tire. and he didnt charge me to change them. So in love! and that whole thing about my turbo. since he fixed the wiring to the glowplugs, hasnt caused a problem yet! how happy does that make me?! u have no idea. But i'm still really upset with Voltswagon. oh well nothing i can do about that right? Maybe I'll write to the company. be like, ok i know im a girl but this is crazy! 40 bucks verses 2000?! crazy. and the fact that they didnt do the job right? ya im a girl but dont ruin my car and take all my money at the same time!

i have to go now :o)

stupid weather!!!

today was completely boring! i was tired and suffering from my three day migrane. i hate them. i thought i might wake up this morning with some relief from the storm at 6:30 this morning. but no. i woke up at 11 with a pounding headache. i should of stayed in bed all day. but i didnt. i talked to a couple people on the net and tried cleaning up my room a little. seems to be completely disorganized and im not liking that. im not a clean freak but i like to be at least orderly? i guess? lol anyways.

laura invited lisa, james and i over for supper. she made pasta with chicken, tomatoes, capers, and asparagas tips in a balsamic sauce and garlic bread. it was really tastey! i enjoyed it completely! although it was my first meal of the day so i didnt have much and the wine kinda went right into my system hehe. for dessert lisa made this custard pudding out of the happy days naked chef book. it was nice with a cup of tea. so i (i think it was me?) stated that we should do this every week and take turns on who cooks and such. so the new sunday night event is going over to lauras and having dinner. it should be nice. next week im cooking, james is bringing the wine, lisa the apps and laura dessert. it'll be good to try new recipies each time. i can't wait. and hopfully we can keep it up! hehe

next weekend imi going to be crazy busy! it's going to be insane! friday or saturday i have to go to mom and dads for dinner with the Heathers. then Saturday is james' birthday party and then sunday is dinner at lauras again and i have to cook it. i'm thinking i might do fish? i dunno. we'll see. also i think fawky might be moving next weekend. it makes me really sad cause i think hes going to toronto. i know its not a crazy way away but oakville is just so much easier to get to. and im going to miss him alot. cause i know i wont see him as much. oh well what can i do right? maybe it wont be so bad. i hope :o)

this week, im going out to look for a job. this is my goal. i sent out some resumes over email today. we'll see what happens. i hope i hear back from someone. friday i also have the dentist. i hate the dentist. i know i have to go back for a filling too cause i have a chipped tooth. (grrrrr) also on tuesday i have to take my car in to get the tireds changed and possibly an oil change. im over due but i'll have to see how much bittners charges. im happy im getting my tires done though. my one tire is bad and im always afraid its going to fly off or something. so ya busy week this week and weekend. or at least i hope. i need to keep busy for a while i think. i also can't wait to see the heathers. i miss them and always love to see them. omg! i have to do laundry! i totally forgot!

a headache of a weekend..

i've had a headache since Friday evening. It might be Fawkys smoking, but I dont think so. i think tomorrow rain is coming. i hope so. i wish it would go away. i'm sleepy and want to enjoy this awesome weather were having! also for the past week my stomach has been hating me. no matter what i eat it just gurggles and such at me. then i don't feel like eatting. who knows. i've also been really thirsty. maybe im just really hungry? blah. hehe

so this week... i guess this week im going to be cleaning the house getting ready for james' birthday party next week. maybe get lisa to finish the painting at the back hall. hang up the coats and everything. vacuum. dust things. reorganize the kitchen. maybe find a job this week or at least try. i need to find anything. i would love to have a paper pushing job but i dont think thats going to happen. thats ok :) i'll find something. i better.

anyways now i have a meadowlands and wendys date with jason so im going to head out. sorry for the non exciting blog. it'll be better next time. i hope lol.

i love good weekends...

why can i never remember what day it is? i think its tuesday. maybe i should invest in a calander or something. or maybe just look at one?! that might work. last couple days i've been away from home. thank u too james for picking up my bowl and im assuming he took my laptop up stairs for me. but thank u james! lol i got to oakville and thought to myself "oh crap! my bowl!" lol and then funny enough i was going to move my laptop at the same time. tomorrow i have a doctors appointment. im not looking forward to it! i hate going to the doctors. so stupid they always get me on something! most of the time its my own fault though. go figure.

Im at home now. i've picked up a couple things. made dinner. grilled some chicken cause it had to be done. fawky is snoring on my couch right now. lol i find it so funny. something u can't control at all. i know weirdness. im having a good day today. maybe cause im at home and fawkys here to. its nice to be able to get things done while he studies and such. i hope he got some done and i didnt bother him too much cause i never really sit through an evening. i always have to do.

The weekend was good. Saturday night i guess it was Lisa, Laura, James and I went to the Martini House on Elizabeth street in Burlington. I was designated driver and couldnt drink but i made lisa try a bunch of different types of martinis that i wanted to try so.. im the end i got a sip of everyones so i tried 9 different martinis in one night lol. so great! i came home and when i went to bed my ribs hurt from laughing so much! soooooooooo great! then on sunday dad came over and fixed out backdoor. i went to websters falls in Greensville and took a walk and took some pictures. it was nice. then i got home and dad was still here so i kept him company for a little and made some perogies. mmmm perogies! then james and laura went to play tennis and i went to watch them. i ended up being the little ball girl lol. it was fun! then later went to fawkys.

monday we went out for an evening walk and i lost my cellphone. way to go leanne! *big cheer* but some nice lady ended up phoning the house and told lisa she was going to leave it at the second cup. so i must have dropped it while i was getting outta the car. it was a nice night other wise.. and day. i had some fun.. its kinda nice when you can just be you around someone. and they don't have to think they have to babysit me the whole time. i love it. :o) anyways, im kinda sleepy and im going to change my shirt now. so im leaving this hehe. and my thought process just ended.

Oatmeal Cookie

Vodka


Baileys


Me- Butter schnapps?

Creme de Cacao

yay to the weekend!

this morning i woke up and my net wasnt working. kinda sucked. so i went up to lisas room and it turned out that sympatico disconnected and wouldnt reconnect for me. so i said screw and i did stuff around the house. mom was suppose to come over today but i didnt phone her til after 11. its like her deadline lol. so i did stuff around the house. even though it doesnt look like it. i actually picked up things and kinda organzed things. tomorrow im tackling the cupboards. i was less crap on my counters so i'm planning to do a clean out of my cupboards for things i dont use. mom and dad are coming over tomorrow to help lisa and i out. lisa is going to put down some sod i think in the backyard. moms going to get painting and im going to just take all the crap outta my kitchen hehe. at least this is the plan. i hope it works. the kitchen is looking amazing! and i love the colours. ill post before and afters when i get them.

I'm hoping i can take Fawky out for dinner or saturday or sunday. who knows. i always feel like im buggin.. maybe its just me. i hope he'll be ok. i worry about him sometimes. mostly.

should be a good weekend and im looking foward to it.

a few tips

The kiss...

family cottage time

loons of miskawbi lake...


the cottage..





The last boatride of the year...

so cute but so stupid...

the only way i can get a picture of laura not giving me the finger.


she always looks so mad!

happy dad taking his girls out... all 5 of them!

our pet chipmunks, storing up for the winter...

woooooo baby!

i just can't think straight. my mind is thinking about so many things at once im going crazy i swear.

a) theres the car. i took it to see another guy today. Bittners on Consession street. wow save my life! i'm not going to the dealership anymore! Bittners is an autobody shop the is specific to Voltswagons. My dad went there about 15 years ago with his audi. (might give u an idea that theyre good) So i left my car there over night. previously i took it to the dealership and they told me i needed to buy a new turbo, costing me around $1800 and! charged me $100 bucks . Today Bittners told me it was the wiring to my glowplugs. total charge to check it and fix the problem was $43. what the hell?! so i asked him why is am i loosing exeleration once in a while? is that not my turbo? thinking maybe there was more than one problem with the car. he said if just might be my air mass flushing out and if it still happens to me then bring it back and he'll take a look at it. then i asked how much it would cost if it was the air mass. $100 bucks no labour charge on it. OMG! I swear i could kiss the ground he walks on. I almost cried when he told me $43 bucks today. i must admit. goodbye to the dealership! hello Bittners! So Fawky picked me up and took me to bittners after i made him breakfast...

b) the love life. i dont even know if you could call it "the love life" maybe the "casual love life" or the "casual friendship life". i dunno. but its on my brain. I've been listening to Listen to your heart by DHT (original by Roxette) alot lately. I gotta say my heart isnt saying much at the moment. The person im seeing is wonderful in most cases. I think i need someone whos a little more interested in who i am then anything. when were out together everything is great and wonderful, i love it! but as soon as we get to the apartment theres one thing on his brain and im not getting comfortable with him. i hate it. i think its a lack of respect. and maybe in his culture its the way u treat a girl but in canada (thank god) were treated more as equals, and im finding a huge lack of respect coming from him. not someone who takes every command. i have my own opinion and my own thoughts and you better listen and pay attention to my needs as well!

c) the job... the search continues. im a little frustrated at a few things. but thats just to be expected. I want to get a simple data paper pushing job. im good at it and i need to do something. I'm crazy busy when I'm home but i love to work and need something. but im trained as a chef and thats a problem. i looked at doing courses at mohawk but they dont have specific things. i'd have to go to school again for about 2 years to get all the classes i need to. hmmm hmm hmm... im also not happy if im not cooking. its my passion and if im not involved in food i loose intrest. i'm finding i dont have the drive to do much else. so iim just handing in resumes and hoping for the best.

d) fall season is back! yay tv series! i have the OC back already and Gilmore Girls come on last night. tomorrow is Survivor and the 21st is the new martha stewart apprentice. should be interesting. and! ER i can't wait for! and pure coziness! bring out the sweaters cozy up with my tea or hot chocolate and get ready for the tv-athons LOVE IT! :) woooooooo baby so excited!

c) (sorry james) Cae.. yeap cae. i talked to him over Skype yesterday. for the first time in 6/7ish years i heard his voice. i was so quiet at first but then by the second time i talked to him i was completely relaxed. it really truely amazes me his wonderful timing! when ever i want to talk to him hes mostly not there. but when i need him hes there. and he leaves me with the biggest smile in my heart. so happy. anyways... im going out to dinner with timmy so i have to get ready to go.

omg its september!

wow. the blog i havent been keeping up at all lately! im sorry to all the people that actually read this :) my ass hurts today. i think its from the campfire and sitting on the bricks around the fire. we should find some sort of chair for that next year. i can't believe were going to be closing the cottage in a month. so unfair. i wish we could winterize it. oh well.

last night i went to bed at 10:30. i had a great sleep! but i still want to go back to bed. still a little sleepy. yesterday doug the electrician came by and put in pot lights in the basement. looks fabulous! (at least i think so) tomorrow mom is coming over and helping me paint the kitchen. get that finished. i think it'll look great when its done... finally done. im going to put a coat or primer up today i think on the back splash so while moms here i can paint the blue while she does something else.

Things are looking much better this week and im feeling a lot better about me. I know what i have to do now and its a big load off of me. I talked to mom on the way up to the cottage and she actually was in an ok mood to listen. it got a alot off my shoulders i think. anyways, ill have some picture up from the cottage soon. I just have to resize then and such.

Thank you.

So hi. I want to thank my friends. This past week or so I can admit I havent been myself. Most of them are blaming it on a person I'm seeing. But I can assure you its not him. I was a little confused at first, and I must say it's much better now. It was something new in my life and since I value what my friends think, it was on my mind so asked them about things. I probably should have just let things run its course. This past little while I've just been lost with myself. I'm frustrated. I don't have a job, and my whole lifes plan has come to a complete hault. It's really been bothering me. My car is yet again falling apart. No reason for it to do so. And amongst all of it I start seeing someone. So of course I want to spend time with him. He makes me feel worth something again. And I know everyone cares about me, but it's nice to hear certain things from a complete stranger, that usually isn't said to me. I'm sure i've been rather distant and I apologize for that. I needed me time in the middle of everyone else wanting time with me. Of course it doesn't help that my sleep schedule was off. Many of you know ever since i was a baby, if Leannes sleep is off it throws everything off in my life lol. Anyways, my point... I just wanted to say thank you to all my friends. These past couple weeks I've been a personal mess. I'm really lost with what to do. I'm back on track and feeling much better. I kinda just had my own breakdown i guess you could call it and you were all the best you could be for me and i appreciate it. No need to worry, I'm ok. I just needed to figure things out for me.