car this car that...

so all is gone to hell in my eyes. i was really content almost.. with this whole car stuff. i was confident that if i went to marcenti that they would give me a great price to do the work on this guys car. i know they do great work. but of course the guy doesnt trust that my car guy knows what hes doing and wont go see him. so now im beyond upset. i can really understand where hes coming from. but at least call my guys and let them answer any questions. im so upset. more because hes saying he doesnt trust me. which i know i shouldnt take it that way but because im me and my moto is trust them until they give u reason not to, i take it that way. i still have little hope yet though. dad told me to call paul, and tell him whats happened. and maybe if im lucky he might be able to get a deal with carstar that will be better for me. and then i always have the option of insurance. so ill talk to paul. then go talk to dad. and talk to insurance people i guess. see which way is the best. of course in the end i wouldnt mind insurance if it didnt effect dads too much. but we'll see. im most upset about the fact that im going to have no money for cuba. ill probably just have enough to pay for the car but not a penny to take over to cuba. i feel bad cause that will suck for jen. but i guess we'll manage. so im off to watch csi and then probably get chocolate lol. i think i need some.

yay spring!

so its only wednesday and my week has been crap. but! today in all my crappiness, i started off with tim hortons. i used my coffee tag thing that i won about a month ago. and i got my double double, and i won a cookie! how great is that?! a winner with a winner. heheheheeehhhhhhhehhhh.... ya anyways, so my dude that im paying for his car to be fixed lol, called and his place he got an estimate done at, was like 1000 bucks. im going to go to mechantis tomrrow see if i can get a deal since he does all my dads trucks for work. so heres hoping. so through me day, well the last 20 minutes. i realized, spring is here! im completely expecting the traditional final snow storm, it just owuldnt be right if it didnt happen. but its in the air! and soon the cottage will be open! ive been dying all winter for the cottage to open and its almost here! how great is that?! ill trek trough this week. see my money go into someone elses car, maybe go to the falls and fix uncle eds computer then call this guy "bert" about blinds. now get this, this guy bert comes into moms place today from sears to put up her new blinds. so it ends up this guy lives in burlington. went to the same highschool as mom. knows the same people. then hes just gotten a kidney transplant at st. joes has all my same doctors, of course. and then on top of that! he goes to church with my father business partner. how weird is that? so because of all that, i get free blinds out of the deal! i guess since he works for sears he has all these blinds that he has to get rid of because he and his wife are moving. so he offered to come over measure our windows and find some for us. how awesome is that?! and then mom also got a new couch, so im probably going to get her old couch which will be big for this area but its needed so im super happy about that. so even though im going to be flat broke for the next year saving my heart and soul up for anything, ill somehow new things for free! lol how great hehe. and lisa was mentioning shes going to buy paint for the kitchen so faboo! anyways, so i guess thats it for now. so excited about the cottage! hehe.

what a bad day...

so i dunno what to say. my day started great. pretty much due to the weather. went to moms and picked up some stuff. went to the dentist this morning. no cavities! that was great! i hate the dentist so much i loose sleep the night before. i got 4 hours sleep last night. so at about 2 i had a nap. woke up with a migrane at 3. took some advil and laid down for about another hour. ive had a headache since but at least im not numb. jen came over at 6:30. showed me our plane tickets and such for cuba. then we went to kyles moms place and picked up my dvds. on the way home we went to super sub in dundas and got some super. poutine and jen got a burger and poutine. so on the way home at cootes, there was another jetta infront of me. yeap they didnt go through the light and i hit their bum. yeap great. im a little upset. of course my car is fine. his wasnt. just some paint but it'll probably run me 500ish. im so not impressed. so tomorrow im going to go talk to dad. just to let him know whats going on. my back up hehe. *sigh* above all that my brain is just going nuts over everything. and cant think straight about certain things. i think by the end of these two weeks, ill need to be in cuba for a week lol.

Easter pics...

Crazy Larry...

And Charlotte (Larrys wife) talking to my dad..

This would be larry throwing grapes at me...

Good luck ever getting laura not giving you the finger in a photo..

Friday thinking... "look at that food! all for me!!"

of course how could anyone ever say no to miss "angelface" Maddie..

Happy Easter Everyone!

Sunday night. it was a good one. had a really laid back day. cleaned the house through the week so i didnt have to do that today. just vegged, watched a little tv, started to write a letter to Cae. my awesome super cool neighbours, came over gave lisa and i some lindt chocolate and an easter hug. theyre so cute! then laura came over and watched some tv. and then lisa, laura and i all headed over to mom and dads for easter dinner. uncle ed, aunt jackie, uncle ron, larry and charlotte all came over as well. it was a really nice night. on top of that i didnt have to drive so i could drink. that was great! lol dad just kept giving me more and more! and to see larry and charlotte was awesome! larry was/is a friend of my moms from growing up. so close we call him a cousin. from the first day i met him we just clicked and it was great. we have this thing with chocolate almonds. the first day we met, mom had some chocolate covered almonds. i passed them around. after no one wanted any, larry and i just devoured them all. it came to the last one and i just popped it in my mouth. after doing so larry piped up and said i wanted that one! so i took it out of my mouth and passed it to him and yes, he ate it. so over the years, everytime i see him i think of ways to do things to the choclate almonds. one year i made mice out of them, another i might suck all the chocolate off them etc. today i wasnt on the ball and didnt get a chance to get any but im going to have to figure something out and send them to him. the second greatest thing of the evening was dinner. mom did a "taditional" polish/ukraine dinner and it was great! pyrogies, cabbage rolls, borsch, ham, and that gelled pork and egg stuff. never been a favorite of mine, and i can't spell the actual name of it so im not going to try. but it was a really nice evening. im not sure if it was the fact that dad kept giving me drinks that made it that more special but it was just really nice. im also excited cause i talked to charlotte about this idea for a dessert that i've been thinking about and she said it was a great idea so im going to try it sample it on her. i'll let you know what it is after i made lol. so i took lots of pics, and hopfully tomorrow ill get to moms an upload them off the camera and maybe have some pics up tomorrow. im of to bed to listen to some music. i dunno if ill fall asleep or not but heres hoping! hope everyone had a good easter! 2 weeks til cuba! WEEEEEEEEEE!!

have to move on...

have to move on...

so this week on spike tv was the CSI marathon. 12-9pm straight CSI. got some songs for u all to check out from it. Unbound by Robbie Robertson this is from an episode where the sisters were models but the one sister got hooked on drugs and became homeless and the other sister ended up dead. in a nutshell. then there is Darkest Dreaming by David Sylvan. the episode i just watched. it had a whole thing with lady heather and such. its also the same episode that eddie, cathrines ex-husband dies in. if u watch csi im sure u'll know these. the song darkest dreaming, im really liking at the moment. i've seen the episode about 3 times and everytime i try and find the song and i finally found it! well actually lisa watched it with me and found it for me. very happy :o) so i had to share this with everyone! hehe

now im just about to go to bed, and i get this message from someone on my list. i dont understand this person. he only messages me when he wants "something" from me. i reply the same thing ever time. "i dont know u, why am i going to sleep with u?" lol and he still keeps trying. ive even deleted him from my list and he still messages me. i should probably block him. for some reason though i get humour out of him doing this. like normally i dont mind meeting people if a) i talk to them more than 10 minutes once a month and b) if its not for sex. ive told him this and he just doesnt get it. so confused but so funny.

now the other thing thats in my head as always is the guy situation. what is up with them?! lol there is someone clearly interested in me, as i am in them. but he keeps insitsting on putting school work first. i can handle this as many of u know. but i just dont get how long he wants me to wait for him. like i havent met him yet and the feeling is that it can go somewhere, if he ever stops for two hours just to meet me and spend time for a coffee or something! im going out of mind. completely understood that hes from a different culture and work is usually number 1. but even if thats so, if u really like someone and can see a promising future with them would u not be willing to give up time to see them? im not asking to give up every waking moment. god only knows im not that sort of girl. i understand that everyone needs their own friends and time away from eachother. but give me a couple hours in a week for now! i dont need to be the centre on the universe! anyways, im sure ive bitched tonnes about that so im going to stop. or try to. cause its certainly something thats on my mind alot. i figure what i'll do is give it til i get back from vacation. if nothing happens im not going to sit and dwell on it. after all theres been promises for the past 4 monthes and nothing coming from it. time to stop doing this to myself.

randomness

was sunday really the last time i wrote? where has the week gone? crazy. im trying to think what ive done this week but its like a big blank. that spells excitment! lol monday i went to the second cup then the movies with sarah, shannon, jen and michael. we went to see Be Cool. it was pretty funny. :) then yesterday i had a migrane so i stayed in all day. cozy bed at least. changed my sheets and blankets so its nice and soft and cozy. although i do hate staying in bed all day. such a waste of the day. woke up today, jen wanted to watch bridget jones diary II so i went picked her up and we came back here and watched it. pretty good movie. hehe i liked the first one better. but it was still cute and funny. then the snow came. what is up with that?! tomorrow its suppose to be 5 degrees and we get this blizzard this afternoon. no wonder im getting these migranes. im hoping while in cuba this weather will start leaning more towards spring and even out a little more. get that whole season changing thing out of the way. i can only hope. its weird, how today i realized were into the 2 week mark for the trip hehe. kinda get excited when i think that :) when u can put 2 weeks and blah blah days hehe. yay! i think i seriously need this vacation. get my mind out of life for a while. although im afraid to come home and see what the state of my house will be in. either lisa not doing anything or mom doing too much. it scares me lol. so is it weird to anyone else that easter is this weekend? it just seems really early to me. maybe its just that there is now snow on the ground? just weird to me this evening. maybe thats just me :op *yawn* back to CSI i go. ya to spike tv marathons!!

Easter...

mmm more discount chocolate! hehe so i was cooking our sunday dinner. this week its black angus roast, since it was on sale, i though i would treat lisa and i. with some broccoli, cauliflower, and green bean casserole. pretty much veggies with sauce and baked with cheese on top lol. so yummy. and i think since jens not coming anymore ill just do roasted potatoes instead of mashed. i have a mirange today so im kinda going to be lazy. last night i went to bed at about 4am. im pretty tired. it was death by laundry. i ended up doing 8 loads of laundry, i still have three more to go. washed the tub and the bathroom sink. and organized my drawers upstairs. today i had planned on cleaning up the rest of my room since its garbage day, get all that stuff outta there. i guess its kinda my mission this weekend to get the house cleaned. i have to go to moms and get the vacuum cause our c/v is clogged i think of christmas tree. oops!

so people, since i didnt get a christmas dinner, im thinking easter. now the sunday, i think they 27th? yeap the 27th im going to be at moms for dinner. so im thinking either the saturday or the monday. but i knkow the monday most people so things with their family. so if u could just let me know if any of this works, ill work something out. i might even get up the effort to make some perogies this year! woo imagine that! and either turkey or beef.. depending on people again. anyways i better shower and clean some more. hope to hear from u!

why do i always stay in on weekends?

oh good starts to my weekend. last night i cleaned up the house a little which always makes me feel good. then sunday i dont have to do as much. which is always nice! so got a pretty good sleep. someone phoned yet again this morning. i wish they would leave a message. rolled out of bed at about 11:30, made some tea and had a maple creme donoe so yummy! then cae came online which was a treat cause i never see him on the weekends. talked to him for about and hour. cleaned up the house and had a shower. then kirk and heather came by. heather got her nose peirced looked pretty nice. gave them one of the banana cakes to take home with them. thenthey left and i made some poutine for myself. so yummy! instead of cheddar or mozzarella i used the montery jack cheese we had, loaded it on, so good! love the cheese and it had a great flavour. so yum! hehe. so i was just sittin here copying some cds, and romeo has figured out his tent. its so cute, he has his own little tent. such a spoiled little... big cat he is. im so amazed he fits in it too! so now im going to go out to shoppers and maybe the grocery store again find something for tonight for dinner. hmm maybe some fish? *poundering*

Good Afternoon!

oh so last night i finally got a pretty good sleep. some one for some reason calls at 9am like every morning for the past week. usually wakes me up. but this morning i just rolled over and fell right back asleep. i went to bed at about 1:30 listening to music and i fell asleep to it. i kinda remember pulling my head phones off but barely lol. so i ended up getting up at 11:30 which was really nice. i havent had a good sleep in a couple monthes at least. but my eyes hurt today. oh well. hehe.

yesterday i went to Bahrs Saddlery with laura. she bought her riding boots. 1000 bucks! crazy! the girl gave her 20% off which she was most impressed with lol. so was i. dressage riding certainly cost a lot when u start doing the shows! i think its amazing what she does though. i told her that if my kids wanted to ride i think i'd let them. she thought i was crazy and asked me why lol. i think its a great sport to do, i always wished i could do it as well. she was amazed by that. i think im going to grab dads camera and get some nice shots of her riding.

so i've decided that by the end of this year i have to go to brazil. or save the money to go. if i dont go i'll regret it. so i just have to. i wish i had the money to go from cuba cause im half way there from that point. its forsure my next trip. anyone wanna go? hehe i hate to do something like that alone, but at the same time i think i have to accept that i would be going alone lol.

i guess im going to go shower and get to the grocery store and stuff. have a happy day and weekend peeps!

In A Dream...

In a dream i saw your face
i held your hand feeling your long embrace
you whisper something directly in my ear
having chills up and down my spine
you said everything i wanted to hear
you looked directly in my eyes
but then you looked away
your lips went to meet mine
and forever thats where i wanted to stay
but as soon as you kissed me the sun began
to rise and now that i am not dreaming my fantasy dies
i begin to grip my pillow and i start to cry
my bed is like a casket
feeling dead i lie
is what i live for
when i close my eyes
and dream of you once more

~Corinne Cacciotti~

Suffering from Caebrain make it stop!

good morning! yes leanne is up before noon! yeah! i went to bed last night at 1 couldnt get to sleep til about 2:30 and then woke up at 8:40 and stayed in bed til 10. i think im suffering a little from Cae brain lol. so i decided to get up and see if anyone was online. just jen whom i will be seeing in about 2 hours. today we are going to take my car in to check the tire pressure, since they put my winter tires on i can't get at the valves to do it myself, and theyre also going to check my brakes for me. my routers are on the dead end lol but they want my brake pads to die to before they fix them. thats a bill im really not looking foward to! then after we do that, were going to go bathing suit shopping! yeah oh im so over joyed about that! lol i hate bathing suits but i guess i'll need something to swim in. then yesterday i got a skirt and a pair of capris and then ill get my bathing suit today and then before i leave i'll get my luggage. i have it picked out i just have to buy it. and that means mom has to give me the rest of my money. she gave me half yesterday so i could give jen the money for the trip. she totally guilt tripped me he whole time. i didnt say a word she gave the money and i left but only after she went back out. not a single word and somehow i was the evil one. pretty much it came down to that because of everything shes ever done for me i owe her my money. oh well.. worse comes to worse i'll just talk to dad about it. anyways, i guess i'll shower up and everything get ready to leave in about an hour and a half. plan when i can think about going to brazil lol.

oh so happy...

so my evening turned out pretty good. i went to see jen for supper. on my way i went to the post office to pick up whatever i missed this morning at my front door. i thought it was my passport. but no i went and it was a package from cae. how happy was i?! lets just say i have the biggest smile on my face and its not leaving any time soon. so i went and opened it on jens break with her. it smelt like brazil lol. it was funny i showed lisa and she said the same thing hehe. its like a woody smell or something hehe. so great! hehe i love it. anyways so thats completely made my week. and i got home around 7:30 and realized wait a second cuba and brazil are pretty darn close. so now my mind is pondering lol. happy happy. anyways thers this show on monday nights that i watch now called medium. its pretty good. at least for monday night hehe. 10pm CTV its kinda neat. im going to head off to bed after this show and listen to my new CD :)

nothin really exciting around here...

slowest monday ever! surprisingly ive had a really good day lol. for not doing anything LOL. at 4:30 im going to go see my jen for supper. which i cant wait for cause im starving! i just got off the phone with mom. shes really driving me nuts with my money. but i guess it'll get settled eventually *note never let mom hold ur money, its impossible to get back* so cae messaged me today. puts me on top of the world hehe. i miss him so much when i can't talk to him, and i havent since like christmas. hes sent me something which im really excited about. hopfully ill get it soon hehe. well before cuba would be nice. so anyone have any requests from cuba? i should probably ask the travel place what i can bring back hehe. im getting pretty excited about going and just vegging on the beach. looking at the different markets and stuff. ok im watching general hospital now and this story line is really getting old. i know i know i should probably stop watching it but i can't lol. nothing else to do at the moment LOL. i think my passport came today. i have a package to pick up from the post office. see my horride picture lol. ah well. if it gets me over the border im all good lol. anyways off i go to do "stuff" hehe

stop the snow!

saturday evening. got nothin to do :) find it rather odd that my weekends i usually have nothing to do. so i cook :) today i made tacos for dinner and for dessert i made some chocolate brownies and layered with cherry filling and topped with cream cheese icing. mmm good! and now im stuffed. and really tired. so this week havent been up to much but keepin busy. went to see jen for lunch a couple days this week. then went to moms and did some stuff for her. might have a job or when i get home from cuba. im going to go to wiarton for a few days and "shadow" one of moms friends at a nursery school. she cooks snacks and lunches for the kids so her supervisor has asked me to come up and shes going to try and get something lined up for me around hamilton. so heres hoping. so not alot to really say today, im rather tired so im off :op

Can i have your bank account number please?

oh kay big problem! so i have a membership with columbia house. of course ive completely forgetten about finishing to pay for stuff i got last year. so i got a phone call today from a credit thing NOC or something of that sort. telling me if i pay it now it wont go against my name. so fine im all good for that. then shes like i need ur bank account number. i was like sorry? i was like can i just pay the company or take cash to an office? she like no i need ur bank account number so we can do a direct withdrawl. sorry no. if you are a company well known etc i should be able to send in a money order or bring the money to you. so then of course shes like its you credit name its affect and if u dont give me ur bank account number this will go on ur credit tonight. i was like listen its not that i dont want to give u the money, its that i dont trust people just phoning up saying theyre this person and im just suppose to hand over my account numbers? sorry no. shes like fine then its going on ur credit name tonight. alright fine so be it. so of course ive written to columbia house and asked them if i can just pay them the debt i owe. but seriously am i the only one that see soemthing wrong with this?

what to do..

So since about wednesday i havent been sleeping that well. im not sure what it is. wednesday and thursday i woke up at like 8 am with a migrane. then friday saturday and sunday just kinda woke up through the night and had to force myself to sleep again. im trying to figure it out. usually something on my mind when this happens. maybe its ciba, maybe its a boy, maybe its just my life in general. im 24 years old this year and have about no direction in my life right now. i used to be the one on the straight a narrow. knew what i wanted and well got it. graduate highschool a year before my friends, graduate college the year after. of course i had the two years of being sick that set me back, but i picked myself up and carried on and bought my house with lisa. and now since then im kinda lost. i want to do my catering more than anything, but its proving to be impossible. so now, im dont know if i want to go back to school for something else, or if i want just try seeing if i can get out into the cooking industy again. which physically might be a problem for me. maybe i could try both? i think im going to make up my mind by the time i get back from cuba. that'll be my time limit lol. anyways, so my pictures below. i had to share some cause i love them hehe. theres my babies Friday and Maddie. then theres just a few of many pictures i took through Dundas. i went to pick up a kidney foundation kit and everything was white. i almost died! so instead of picking up the kit i went to mom and dads and picked up the nikon. i think i spent about 2 hours just driving around taking pictures. Dundas is so pretty in the winter. must be why i used to love winter so much. its always so nice in Dundas. Here in Hamilton im hating it lol. so then of course when i have the camera in my hands i have to take pictures of my Friday and Maddie. got some cute pictures of them. well i guess i have some stuff to do.. enjoy the pics! :)

of course i have to sneak my puppies in...

Winter Wonderland

Some pictures I took around Dundas and in moms yard..

to the weekend...

My weekend... has actually been pretty nice! I picked up James on Friday. on the way home we got gas then i took him to brantford to get some stuff at his moms place. the we came back to my place, after getting dinner at wendys. i hadnt had wendys in forever! so i got the spicy chicken. mmm yummy! so we came home and watched some tv then played balderdash. it was pretty darn fun. i didnt think i would like it but then my answers started to almost fit in with the answers in the game. so thenafter that i think we pretty much went to bed. then yesterday, james and i headed out to slimeridge. it was crazy busy! couldnt find a parking spot around the whole mall! so we left and went to swiss chalet for lunch. i had a quarter chicken, and i ate the whole thing! i must have been starving! i never eat that much! anyways, so then we went to fortinos bought some groceries. then i chopped some things up to get ready for dinner. just to make some pizza. its nice that the grocery stores sell pizza dough makes it so much easier! so then, lisa james and i went to the 7:50 show to see constantine. no parking at the movie! we ended up parking at the montanas parking lot and squished between a van and a car. ya jetta for being small! so the movie was pretty darn good! i heard it was good and i heard it was bad. but we all liked it. except james wont watch it again cause hes a scaredie pants lol. so then when i got home i put the pizza together with pepperoni, iinistead of tomato sauce i use bruchetta mix, then i put goat cheese (not feta) and tonnes of motzerella on top. oh i also put some green olives on for james and lisa cause they like it. and well lets say it was one of my better pizzas. i rather make that then order in a pizza. anyways, so we ate, we watched tv then james and lisa went off to bed and i watched OCC. they made a chopper in tribute or a mustang shelby. i cant wait til tuesday to find out what that looks like! i love shelbys. so to see occ do one should be pretty darn cool. so now today, ive just woken up about an hour ago and im having my tea. james is eatting pizza and having pepsi and he woke up about 20 minutes ago lol. so im not sure what were going to do but i know i have to go see my moms neighbour to sign my passport again. he already signed my photos but i filled out the old passport form so i have to do it again. *sigh* i hate to bug him twice but thats ok ill just go over with a pen and fill everything else out for him. yeap.. k im gonna go now hehe. happy sunday people!

crazy days...

hello all. well last couple days kinda been crazy! jen and i just decided that we were going to take a vacation. so we decided cuba! lol so were going april 10-17 book today. i think its almost one of my fasted planned vacations in a while. although last years disney land come in close second. jen is crazy excitied. im excited lol.. i think jen wants me to be more excited right now but don't worry my little one i will be! im really happy that its all inclusive! meals, drinks and such saves a lot of money that way. can't wait just to veg on the beach totally carefree. weeeeeeeeee hehe anyways, last couple days just been running around with passports, travel insurance all that good stuff. so tomorrow i get to sleep in maybe get over this migrane and see little sexybum james! hehe YAY! anyways, i think im too in thought to write tonight, if that makes sense hehe. so ill write more laters i guess :)