new year new start?
ok new start. I'm going to try blogging again. mom actually suggested i write a journal. but i guess she forgets shes why i stopped. i guess my blogging before got back to her and she didn't like her imagine in the mirror. so new approach.
lately I've felt completely stressed out. reasons i don't know. i wish i knew. then i could fix it right? I've been a completely bitch to mom lately. i know i have. i don't mean to be but shes just always pushing my buttons and she does it well. its been a while since i blogged last and alot has happened and changed in my life.
Karim and i are no longer. after crying from Tunisia to Germany i think i made up my mind. lol i spent more time with his family than i did with him and i didn't fly 4000 miles for that. and only for him to tell me he didn't think i loved him. sorry no. more reasons than that, I'm still a little bitter but finally that chapter has closed and I've moved on. i did go back in 2009 or 3 weeks and stayed with him and his family. and it was good to learn what and who he actually was. i don't regret it but it is a sore spot for me. October 2008 i was in the hospital for a month. feeding tube went in, mom gave my car to Lisa and things in my life I'd have to say changed right than. at least i was moved back home and saw it all coming so i was prepared for it. October 2009 feeding tube came out and things are going allot smoother. I'm really trying to get back on track. October 2010 i started Pilate's. love it! its helped me 200% i can actually walk now which i couldn't do in a straight line in august. got my new car. i love that too! lol my g6 oddly the song came out the same time. after i was the salt off it ill get pictures up hehe.
OK now just saying all that about Karim, Tunisia was just on the news and I'm worried lol. oh great now Brazil. wtf?! dead friends tomorrow or something?! and now Ive totally lost my train of thought so I'm going to go and try to get a hold of my friends.
lately I've felt completely stressed out. reasons i don't know. i wish i knew. then i could fix it right? I've been a completely bitch to mom lately. i know i have. i don't mean to be but shes just always pushing my buttons and she does it well. its been a while since i blogged last and alot has happened and changed in my life.
Karim and i are no longer. after crying from Tunisia to Germany i think i made up my mind. lol i spent more time with his family than i did with him and i didn't fly 4000 miles for that. and only for him to tell me he didn't think i loved him. sorry no. more reasons than that, I'm still a little bitter but finally that chapter has closed and I've moved on. i did go back in 2009 or 3 weeks and stayed with him and his family. and it was good to learn what and who he actually was. i don't regret it but it is a sore spot for me. October 2008 i was in the hospital for a month. feeding tube went in, mom gave my car to Lisa and things in my life I'd have to say changed right than. at least i was moved back home and saw it all coming so i was prepared for it. October 2009 feeding tube came out and things are going allot smoother. I'm really trying to get back on track. October 2010 i started Pilate's. love it! its helped me 200% i can actually walk now which i couldn't do in a straight line in august. got my new car. i love that too! lol my g6 oddly the song came out the same time. after i was the salt off it ill get pictures up hehe.
OK now just saying all that about Karim, Tunisia was just on the news and I'm worried lol. oh great now Brazil. wtf?! dead friends tomorrow or something?! and now Ive totally lost my train of thought so I'm going to go and try to get a hold of my friends.
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