good deeds always make u feel good...

so today has been a pretty good so far. although my phone has been ringing off the hook. and i got a nice visit at my door from the ontario energy guy. gawd i hate them, here well just fill out this form, like no dude i dont want it go away! i took me like 10 minutes to get rid of the dude. and he wasnt the nicest person. actually he was an a$$ anyways, so then i got a call from a job i asked about and sent them a resume. i hope it works out and im good enough etc... its for a personal chefs job which i love doing. so lets hope. i think i'll have a good shot. now sarahs on her way over to help me start a scrapbook of Leightons trip in canada. i hope that turns out really well. so now its about 12:30am im just about to go to bed. i had a pretty good end of the day. sarah and i went crazy at michaels craft store. i think our scrapbook is going to rock though. then lisa and i went to julies and i booked a manicure and pedicure for next week. i cant wait its been so long! its so relaxing! then we came home but stopped off at the bannk first. ended up doing a good deed of the day. this poor guy... i was waiting for lisa and this guy asked me to watch his groceries while he went to get more bags at the corner store cause his had broken apart. so i did and lisa came back as did he. so we started to leave and as i was waitng to pull out, lisa and i just looked at this guy and thought those bags are just gonne break again. so we decided to give him a ride. if he didnt mind stopping at the other bank. so we gave him a ride. almost home, i think he was a little worried that maybe if we took him to his actual place we'd stoke him or something so we dropped him off probably like 3 blocks from where he actually lived. but it was all good. he seemed pretty cool. his name was mike. good convo on the way. but now lisa and i are wondering about him lol. like u know those unanswered questions that u just dont have time to ask. kinda sucks, cause i doubt ill ever see him again. oh well. best of luck to mike. anyways im off to bed cause tomorrow laura and i are going for breakfast, then were going to look at houses for her. so ill tell ya about my life tomorrow. when i get home in the evening after mom and dads as well. *sigh* it'll be puppy madness!

drifting...

so today i had stuff to say but i cant think of any of it right now. i want to go to shoppers. but i think i'll go to bed instead :o) goodnight world.

hi

so its 1:20 in the morning, and i've just gotten home from being out with jen and jason. well jen mostly. it was nice we all went for ice cream at stoney creek dairy, then jason showed us the look out off cenntenial. its really pretty up there! ive never been! then we took jason home went to drop off jen and we decided to watch a movie so we went to see the terminal. good movie. no the best ive seen but not the worst either. so now im home. talking to people on the net. such is my life. and u know thinking about it tonight would have been one of those really good dates if it wasnt with two of my friends and actually was a date lol... movie look out icecream, that would be rather nice *sigh* anyways i dont really have much to say tonight so i shall leave now.

taking stance

So, I've decided I have to change something. It'll be good for me. Since i feel like everyone, or at least i feel everyone (but jen) treats me like im invisable or something, i will be. It makes me feel like crap. I would do anything for any friend that i've known. Even if i havent seen u in monthes, or even years. why because i love people and i love my friends even more. even if ur not the greatest person in the world, i only see the good in u. for instants sean, or mike or any other person i've let wonder in my life and basically walk all over me. some people would probably say that i do these things to make people want me or something of that sort. maybe in part i do, but to me its the way i would like to be treated i guess. my friends are the world to me, and i would do anything for them. i would also do alot for complete strangers because im a loving and giving person. and maybe one might see that. but right now i feel i have to change that. because i feel like people arent appriciating anything i do for them, and im getting walked all over. there is always that exception though and thats jen, she loves me for everything i am, and we do things for eachother rather than always taking from me and i love her to death for it. she respects me and would probably die without me, and i would do the same for her. as my sister would say "shes the only friend i know, that doesnt want anything from u but ur friendship" and to laura, i must agree. i wish everyone of my friends were like that, in that respect. in fact i wish everyone was like her in that respect. i think this world would be a great one if jen and i rule it lol. but today is my stance that i will no longer be hurting inside from people using me and making me feeling empty. and if this sounds egotistic i dont mean it to be but if certain people dont figure out things, about me, there gonna loose having me around, and im gonna miss u tons but i cant let this hurt me anymore.

Who is Roger?!

Dear roger,
so k, since i know ur a returning person, i would like to say sorry. i told jen about the little posting about my car and how i was kinda upset about it at the time. then i realized that maybe my reply to it was kinda harsh. so i want to say sorry. i reread it and realized (i dont think) that u ment it the way i read it. i just kinda get in the defensive when people say that my father pays for things and such. he hasnt and 99% of the time doesnt. and i also get upset when people call me the spoiled little rich girl or something. i think ive earned everything ive ever gotten and ive worked for it. my house, my car everything, it comes out of my pocket. i just knew what i wanted at a young age and saved for it. so im sorry if i got all snappy in my remarks. and can u let me know if i actually know u? like are u a friend of mine trying to drive me completely crazy, or what? lol thanks for stopping by though, love the comments :o)

dave.

i havr his neighbour named dave. hes about mid 40's i guess. hes always wiping his car. like its all he does. he gets home from driving somewhere, his wife, kids whatever, and he takes his rag out and starts to wipe it down. its all he does. he windexes the windows on the outside, sometimes he'll wash it down with just the hose. then wipe it again. then it rains he'll wipe it. as its raining he'll wipe it. everyday. from like noon til 7pm. i dont think its very good for the car either. scratching the paint and stuff cause really all hes doing is moving around loose dirt. ANYWAYS, so i went to the mall to see jen on her break. i need to find an outfit for this wedding im going to next week. so i tried on an outfit,jen and i really liked it so we bought it. im gonna go back and see her see if we can find something else, keep our options open i guess hehe. so ya i guess thats it for now cause the game has distracted me so i better go. GO ENGLAND GO!!!

must get back on track...

so today is thursday. right? ya i dont know what land ive been in this week but it definately isnt here. ive completely messed up all my days. wednesday i thought was tuesday so i missed going to the movies on tuesday. then i thought that this weekend was the july 1st weekend and i was going to ottawa tonight, but then realized its next weekend. then to top that off, i have a wedding the july 1st weekend that i forgot about. so now i cant go to ottawa at all that weekend. and part of the point of going to ottawa was to see kevin in his play and thats this weekend not the july 1st weekend. so i royally messed everything up! like what the hell am i doing? im normally on top of these things. totally messed up. and im sure i have some people rather pissed at me about it. i feel so bad. especially to alli cause i know she looks forward to us coming and i keep changing this on her. Anyways, so then last night, i had a panic lol. the computer shut down. because of some memory dump thing. that was probably around 7pm? couldnt do anything with it. it finally turned off. i completely went crazy though. i had nothing to do, nowhere to channel my energy lol. i turned on the tv. and maybe im crazy but i cant watch tv anymore. unless its something like sex in the city or nypd blue or something like that. there is nothing on! its all become these stupid reality shows etc. my god are they getting bad! i ended up watching, oh what is it that one about the four couples and testing their love or something. one person stays home while the other one leaves for the resort in mexico. how long has this show been on? like im sitting here thinking ok i can understand these problems after a month or so. u know temptation and stuff. but its only been a day?! like holy god people! and u call urself in love? the only actual love part is that dude frank i think. but he better get his ass in gear! even though i thought it was kinda cute that his friends were gonna take him to go see that heather chick. people are crazy though. after one day theyre all like oh i gotta leave him blah blah blah. i totally understand that with that brandon guy though sorry but hes an ASS! anyways *sigh* i so tired at the moment. mom wants me to go back and stay at her place tonight. at least its summer so i dont freeze my butt off. but i never get a good sleep there. i pretty much hate going back there. is that a bad thing? well k off i go. ill probably write more later.

hehehe

ok well tonight my mind is blank. so all i have to say is ....

WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

rainy days...

today, well ive been pretty quiet. i dont know why. i think its the weather change. i hate getting these migranes and feeling like this. it makes me think. how i wanna curl up into someone, how i need to get my ass moving about catering. how i should get my ass moving. its frustrating me. i think i gotta just get back into things... tomorrow is planning time i think. lol i hope. i said by the end of the month and it shall happen, in 2 days? i might have to work my butt off. but i shall try. k that was clearing my head. today lets see i started off with the best sleep ive ever had. then went up to kyles and watched identity. kinda cool movie. i thought when i bought it i saw it but then realizing i havent afterwards. but it had john cusack so how can u really go wrong? good movie if ur thinking about seeing it, see it. what else... *i need a hug* then when i got home, i just vegged then lisa came home and we went out and "tended to the gardens" i gotta drug up my plants tomorrow i think with a lil miracle grow. after that jason came over which was nice to see him. of course im in this really weird confused mood at the moment so i was rather blah. i made us coffee and we just watched tv. and i had an egg sandwich. then i talked to jen and played some mindsweeper with her, she updated me on some dundas gossip from older classmates, which was enjoyable to hear that nothing changes sometimes. why are people so afraid to change? maybe im just ahead of most people and need that feeling that i wanna grow and be my own person more than others at this age but, i dunno people, change is good change is good. it adds to the life experience. need to get outta the safety shell i think. i think i kinda answered that mood im in lol... well at least one mood im in. right now i wish i was on a beach with the sun going down. that'll be a goal this summer i think. random thoughts today. so im gonna go now. and maybe wake up in a better mood? not that im in a bad mood, just a mood.

soooo....k

heres the deal. im tired i think. but i cant sleep yet i cant see straight. theres a lot on my mind that i wanna say but i just dont know how to word. how was everyones weekend? mine was pretty interesting. i made some magical brownies, and had one at kyles b-day party. i was pretty baked for like hours. i think i still am in a lot of ways. then today (sunday)(fathers day) i spent most of my day sitting here on the couch, talking to people. mmm whoppers. then i went around 6 to pick up laura from the barn. and no not the grocery store. the actual horse riding barn. where i got put to work. i got to feed the horses. yay me! theyre so pretty. then we came home, only to pick lisa up and go over to mom and dads. that was nice once mom left and lisa and i could sit down with dad and talk. i miss talking to dad. i think he misses us too. everytime we go over and he gets to talk to us and stuff we always leave and he has a smile on his face. that makes me feel good :o) so then i drove lisa home and drove laura to pick up the truck from work soo i dont have to get up at 6:30am cause we all know how Leanne loves getting up. so i came home cleaned the house a little cause tomorrows garbage day and i didnt want anything sitting around for a week. then i cam on the computer for a while went up to kyles watched a movie. then time went like crazy and i left at 3:30. *staring off into space* lol i need sleep.

the party party...

good morning. those were some damn good brownies
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oh ya some links...

kyles... http://www.deadjournal.com/~denthead/

robs... http://raland.blogspot.com

james... http://cdntennispro.blogspot.com

jason... http://www.stimulating.net he also has a hand in www.ottawanet.ca

Eyes open! NOW!

9:08 am. Someone is knocking on my door. I try and open my eyes. It doesnt work. i lay in my bed for a few moments. i sit up. eyes open. i said eyes OPEN! one opens, i peer out my window. ah god bright light! i vaguely see a green truck parked out front, the peer to my left and see a blue blob dragging a garbage can behind the tree. ugh, its mom. i walk downstairs to my front door and open it slightly. i finally get my other eye to open. i still cant really see, my eyes are blurred. i walk to the kitchen and make coffee. im really looking foward to this coffee. as it brews i go back to the front door. "oh hey leanne." i wave. i would try to speak but there is no point. words just arent going to make it out of my mouth yet. so i open the screen door and wave her in. she says "I'm a mess so i wont come in" as she walks in the door. i think then why did u knock?! she even has a note prepared incase i dont answer, that she gives me anyways. why didnt u just leave the note i think. i tell her to go around the back. "what?" clear my throat a little and whisper go around the back! so i meet her around the back. but first i staggered into the bathroom to grab my rose lisa took off our garden. the perfect rose she gave me. i must show mom cause we didnt do anything to our roses and its perfect. shes been trying for years to get her roses to this state. i show her. she loves it. i love it. i then muster up the words to talk. i still really cant see right but that wont happen til around noon. i say about one sentence the whole time shes here, as shes telling me what i need to do inside and out. i never thought the day would come where im showing my mother my gardens that lisa has done such and awesome job on. mom starts to leave. i cant remember what she said while she was her. except "give me a hug" as she leaves. i sit here drinking my coffee thinking about my bed. its calling me again. i have to go it needs me. good night. i mean good morning. ill see you in the afternoon.

love according to the dictionary

n.
A deep, tender, ineffable feeling of affection and solicitude toward a person, such as that arising from kinship, recognition of attractive qualities, or a sense of underlying oneness.
A feeling of intense desire and attraction toward a person with whom one is disposed to make a pair; the emotion of sex and romance.

Sexual passion.
Sexual intercourse.
A love affair.
An intense emotional attachment, as for a pet or treasured object.
A person who is the object of deep or intense affection or attraction; beloved. Often used as a term of endearment.
An expression of one's affection: Send him my love.

A strong predilection or enthusiasm: a love of language.
The object of such an enthusiasm: The outdoors is her greatest love

Love..

What does the word Love really mean? i could say i love to love and they have to different meaning but what are they?

i would really love to love some one right now.

I said good day!

HI! so how is everyone today? I'm ok. i woke up really tired and my throat was really buggin me, but im a little better now. i think everyone is pretty tired today. so after a cup of coffee and shower, i was off to pick up laura from work. i took her to the barn, so she could help load the horses and go to the show in york. i think shes really excited about this show. she should be. its the olympic dressage qualifier. the best of the best are going to be there including her teacher. which truthfully i didnt think was that good. lol then on my way home i decided to see if jason wanted to get together, so i ended up picking him up, and we went to the garden centre. got some moo poo for my plants, a new sprinkler and connecter for the hose. then we went out the little restaurant beside the collins. they werent open. everytime we go for sushi they arent open. its really frustrating. so we went to the collins. but now im hungry again and would really love some of their "casino fries" which is really poutine... mmmm cheese..... so do u like my new look? i kinda do. i could do it in blue too but im in this really big pink mode at the moment, for some reason. oh and Rob and everyone else... the poet of my poem yesterday is.. i dont know thats why i didnt put it on there lol... ive had that poem for about 6 years in my book that i collect all these things in and i didnt write the poet down but ill try and find it for u. i guess thats it for now. i have to go find some food.. besides a ham sandwich...

a little poetry today..

so im in this poetic mood today so i thought i would write... type out my favorite poem on here. so here goes nothin...

Do not be afraid to love these days, take them gently and with consideration for eternaity, but take them as your own. Have patience with your dreams and the expectations that others may have for you, but do not defer all hope to the future for there are only so many tomorrows. As you leave through the gates that turn school days into memories, remember the promises you made to yourself in youth when hope was new and continue to nurture possiblities through time. Strive for excellence in all things but do so in simple pursuit of happiness and do not forget the loveliness that exsists in the world beyond yourself. Take pride in your accomplishments both today and in days to come. Follow your heart and the councel of integrity. But above all be kind, and go with love.

what to say...

well today is wendesday. i have not gone to bed yet though so its still tuesday to me. I think ive had a pretty good day. it started off talking to cae. that always puts me a good mood cause he maakes me smile a lot. then jen was going a little insane so i took her out. ended up at ikea and i found a bookshelf im gonna buy. went to the bank i swear got the stupidest lady ever. got home around 5. and made some chocolate mousse. i had some and i think lisas eatten a good portion of it. i also put some in a container cause om gonna take it to tom at the dealership along with a catering card. i told them id bring stuff at christmas but that didnt happen. talked to leighton too. another happy moment in the life of me. then some point in there i took jen home, and went to moms to pick up my cell phone charger. so yes u can get me on my cell now. laura asked.. well no told me that she needed my car for the weekend.i asked why and got the responds why? u dont need to know why i just need it, its not like its ur car. but mom was there so i could say well actually it is. so i let it pass then she told me why she needed it. so i left and came home a few minutes after that. then no more than 15 minutes after i get in the door mom calls me. shes yelling at me because i didnt fight with laura and stick up for myself. first thought that went through my head was, arent mother suppose to keep the kids from fighting? then mom continued to tell me how the car is mine when im paying for the bills and such and i shouldnt let my sister say things like that to me. so i was like well ill talk to her before thursday cause we gotta make arrangements for her to get the car. so that all planned that i was going to tell my sister where to go with "my" car i get a phone call from laura, asking me if i could just drive her to york on thursday in the "im sorry" voice. so i guess mom talked to her. so then after a little while of sitting around on the computer, kyle came on and asked if i wanted to see kill bill so i went up there for the evening well i guess night by that point. had a smokie and watched kill bill. i must say im surprised at the movie. it was really good i liked it. so now i have to see kill bill vol. 2 i hope its just as good. so i left there at 3:15 and now im home and about to go to bed. so many things on the mind still but i think ill think about those things in bed tonight...

Roger...

well thanks roger... whomever u are, i shall try to do that a little more. and who are u? lol about the dad thing.. i dont ask him to do these things, he just did it. and truthfully i dont think it matters if im 50 years old he'll still do it if he wants to. and i dont think it makes me less responsible because someone pays a bill for me, i have no control over that. i normally pay for everything on my car, and sometimes because my father is the greatest dad alive (in my world) he likes to do things for me that i dont expect. its called a gift. and i appriciate it beyond belief.

No need to stress...

All is good in Leanneville. I walked to my doctors appointment today. that was ok, took me 45 minutes to get there. i hate this heat! then went through all my bloodwork with my doctor, everything is perfect! Except that i have a cold. pretty sad when i need a doctor to tell me that im sick and i have a cold. but why do i have a cold? maybe ive just worn myself out, but i feel alright, just my throat hurt. but its a cold better than what i thought it was! so happy to know that! anyways i then walked home in even hotter weather. swore i was going to die! but i made it faster than the walk there. so then i got home and picked up my messages that my car was ready :o) and jens coming over after work. then learned that dad paid for my car.. rock on daddio! ill have to pay him for this one though. so mikey the driver guy from the dealership came and picked me up, had a nice lil talk on the way, and then all i had to do was pick up the car. so i was asking what they had to do and they had to do a really good cleaning on my turbo. im like oh is that normal? hes like no. i said well what can i do to prevent it from happening. he said.. lol get this ... drive faster! i was like WHAT?! hes told me i wasnt giving my turbo a good "workout" so i have to really start pushin it etc.. i was like do u realize i do around 130 on average on the highways?! lol he just shrugged and told me thats what the mechanic said. *sorry mom gotta drive fast* OH! sorry mister poepoe i gotta work my turbo!!* you know maybe i should find a good race track or something??? oh i love my car *sigh* so anyways thats the story of my day. if im up later tonight ill probably write more then.

Stressed...

today i am stressed. in about half an hour i have to walk to my docotors appointment at st.joes where i feel im only going to hear bad new. at least im prepared for it, whatever it may be. i have also called about my car. i asked if i could pick it up and how it was and the responds i got was.. oh its still being worked on something is majorly wrong with it. maybe not those exact words but the word major was there. this does not impress me. if the bill is major for minor things what is the bill going to be for major things? not happy am i! mom told me to ask about the warrenty. i dont think she gets that things dont come with a life time warrenty. especially cars! okie i have to eat now or i wont have time. ill write more when i get home.

Back from Ottawa...

Well hello again! So its sunday night.. well monday morning at 1:08am. Lisa and I got back home around 11:30pm. I've decided i do not like moms truck. Because its an off roading truck, its kinda all over the place when you hit bumps and stuff on the highways, and since its wider when ur squished on the highway where they are doing construction and they put those stupid walls up i feel ver clasterphobic and stuff. but thats ok i made it home. it was pretty good driving the last 30 minutes on the 407. there was no one around me and i was doing a good 130 feeling very comfy with myself on that. oh thats another thing comfort in that truck... there is none. it is not ment for long trips and thats all ive been driving it for, numb butt and all!! On the way up was ok. except the tarp that was over the plants kept coming loose and stuff. we had to pull over about 5 times, and when drive from 9pm-2:30am it makes for a big annoyence when you just wanna get there. we finally got to our exit and i pulled off and was then stopped by a cop. on the off ramp, i was likeok if hes stopping me for speeding or somethiing he must be really bored cause the off ramp was 40 and i think i was going about 60 lol... but no he stopped me because he thought our truck might have been a stolen one. like what the hell... 2:30am and he stops us for that, yeap lisa in her p.js with a pillow me half alive and listening to sarah mclachlan, i dont think we stole it! but we checked out and he proceeded to tell us that because we had just passed the iroquois casino alot of canyon trucks have been stolen from there so he was just checking. we were like ahh ok... so he let us go and 5 minutes later we were at sonia and dougs heading to bed. how odd. so.. the rest of the weekend went pretty well, i cooked dinner saturday night complete with my chocolate mousse which im shocked worked out cause i did it all by memory, and it was sooooooo good! so all and all it was a pretty good weekend and i think i might go back in a couple weeks to visit alli, and see kevin in his play if that all works out. but for now i should sleep cause ive got a busy day tomorrow. good night all. oh and james, its ok that ur gay cause if u werent u wouldnt be you lol and then i wouldnt know u :o) and thanks for they hugs from rob and james :o) oh! and speaking of robs! my rob, what the hell did u spray all over my house?! anyways, goodnight world!

sleep

so today i went to huntsville. i became one with the bugs. i feel like killing mom. of course we had to take maddie with us cause she cant be left alone yet. fine. first cottage leanne walks maddie around the house while mom looks around. second, the same. third, the same but leanne get attacked in the bush from stupid bugs. i dont mind a couple bugs, but as most people know, when im swarmed by them its like borderline phobia or something. i almost cried. then next cottage same thing, bitched at mom. went to dinner and saw two more cottages and i got left outside yet again. i dont think mother understood until i said if u get that cottage i will not come until the bugs are at least half. lol i still feel like they are crawling all over me. ill probably have nightmares of baby blackflies attacking maddie and i from outside the truck! so tomorrow im off to ottawa in the evening. that should be fun, i hope im awake enough, i also have bloodwork and im oping to give my doctor a piece of my mind when i see them. and i have to take my baby in to get fix, im gonna spend the whole weekend worried about him sitting in a parking lot with no tlc. :( hes gotten worse though right? car will be ooooooooooook. just gotta keep thinkin that. anyways im off to bed cause my brain isnt functioning right. ill try and write over the weekend if not i shall when i get home. i dont even know if i atually wanna go but i guess i kinda have to know eh? oh well. k bye.

omg!

5:30am is just way to early to get up. Everything is a haze. whats going on? dads talking to me, moms yelling at the dogs, am i dreaming? no i dont think so. i think if the sun hits me right now i might melt. ouch! maddie just bite my foot, i dont think im dreaming. damn! lets just hope i live through this day.

hrmm...

So today what did i do.. well i woke up. i think thats a good start to my day yes? I saw Cae, well talked to him breifly today on the computer. (Hes my lil Brazilian friend) I miss him tons cause i never get to talk to him anymore. So I had some more toaster strudels today that was yummy, then had my morning coffee while talking to cae. then i get a phone call from my stupid doctor, telling me that im not taking my meds because i havent gotten my bloodwork done. i was so upset! let me tell ya, like hello getting bloodwork done and not taking meds is completely different. i felt like crying! i know i should get my bloodwork done yes u need not to tell me these thing, but ERRRRRR! this has really bugged me lol. anyways, what else, oh yes i went to the collins with kyle. that was nice, i think i had my doctors on my mind so i was kinda quiet. i think lately ive been kinda quiet for some reason. oh well. im sure ill get over it. Other thing really on my brain, this whole boyfriend thing drives me mad. it doesnt help that in the back of my head i have the fact that every boyfriend ive had is now gay, or the fact that most of my friends are gay. Its when i come over to mom and dads and everytime i mention a new "guy" the thing that flys out of moms mouth is "Is he gay?!" like oh my god does everyone have to remind me of this fact? at least i know that i want a sensitive man! lol i dont even know if its that. maybe they jus tfind me or something. i dunno. i just know im sick of being lonely and people poking fun at the fact that i am. im sick of being the friend. i want more. its the only thing missing from my life and im sorry to the guys that im not gonna whip off my clothes and have sex with u before we start into a relationship cause that isnt the way i work, and whats under my clothes is going to need a lot more understanding then i think u know. so thats that. im at mom and dads right now because im staying over. i dont want to be here. since ive moved out i get why mom always said, "i just wanna sleep in my own bed" well i just wanna sleep in my own bed when i come and stay here. i feel trapped like after 9pm thats it i cant go anywhere. it sucks. by the sounds of this log today it sounds like im really not in a good mood or something but really i promise i had a good day lol. i stopped off to see jason and gave him some plants. it was kinda nice to see him after 2 monthes. kinda. couldn't stay long mom was waiting in the car. Thats another thing. mom has asked me to go with her to huntsville tomorrow to look at cottages. fine. great. she picks me up from my place no hesitation, moves into the passenger side of the truck im driving. We all know i love to drive i have no problems driving. but when u wont even let me go to the bank with the truck because u tell me i have the car, which i have to move two other cars out just so i can go to the bank with it, why are u so quick when u dont wanna drive. oi! it makes me so frustrated! oh well i get to drive im happy, except its going to be like ive never driven in my life for 3 hours there and three hours back. because well i can drive the truck, but not the right way! *mothers*sigh* yeap i think thats all i have to bitch about today. for now.. i should probably go to bed cause i gotta leave at 6am. so later dudes.

Goodnight moon!

So lets see. I'm not feeling very chatty tonight cause im kinda tired from my messed up sleep today. what did i do today... well i woke up at 7:30 and went to bed at 10am and then woke up at 1pm. then did my two step stroll to the computer, see if anyone loved me today in my emails. no. timmy came online and asked me out to lunch so i went. and we went grocery shopping while we were in the same parking lot as the fortinos and eastsides. so that was eventful i guess. and why are my hands burning up right now? anyways, so i came home and i watered the gardens and cleaned and came on the computer for a little. then jen came. and we went to the Outback and split those awesome cheese fries! so good! then after we were going to go to stoney creek icecream but we decided not to and went to hmv instead. i really wish we got ice cream! i bought a cd for leighton and 3/30 for myself. i finally got my leonard cohen and i got amanda marshall and oh the now and then soundtrack. that was fun singing to oldies with jen on the way home. we even had the people next to us boppin along it was great! So lets see what else... not much today ive been so bleh. i hate this weather. i wish it would rain or not just get it over with and get rid of the humity. im so sick of being on the verge of a migrane. kinda kills my days! So this weekend didnt turn out the way i thought. i thought i was going to stay home while lisa goes to ottawa maybe have some friends in or something. no my weekend starts thursday, going up north with mom, for what reason im not positive yet, i think its to look at cottages and properties, and then friday i drive up to ottawa with lisa til sunday. i think i might just tent in the backyard while there that would be great. well if its not too buggy and hot but its ottawa its usually cooler than here right.... i think itll be good. anyways im rather tired tonight so im gonna go veg. toodles for now folks and hopfully ill be a lil more up beat tomorrow!

Goodnight Sunshine!

It is 8:45am. Why do people get up at this crazy hour? I've been up since 7:25. I had to wake up and go pick up plants from wanda. Everyone always yells at me because I never get up before 10am. Whats the point? To drive into crazy morning traffic? where its complete chaos? to get stuck in lines for 30 minutes just to buy a bagel and coffee? no thank you! I rather sleep in so when i get up all is clear and calm again. Whats the point?! Because society says u have to do 9-5 and work like a dog, people who have different hours are frowned upon? whatever. live your life to your own schedule and be happy is what i say. why are worrying about mine? Anyways, see this is what happens when i get up too early! So my plans for today, are to clean the house, find my interac card and go grocery shopping, then after that i dunno maybe water the plants, pick up my phone from mom and then jen is coming over 6:30 so i guess I'd better be around for that. So if i can I'll write a little more later when i get up. I can't function really right now. My toaster strudle just landed on the floor.. how? it was in the direction of my mouth and now its, of course, face down on the chocolate bar wrapper on my floor. oh well 2 second rule right?! night!

oh and...

My nickname paixao, is portugese for passion. I am not portugese. And its really with an A paixAo not paixIo.

My first log...

Well.. lets see what I have for today. today I was really lazy. I woke up at about 10 got out of bed at 11. I checked my phone messages and mom had called me twice by this time. The dog is sick again. I have two dogs. Maddie and Friday. Friday is 12 and Maddie is ummm 4 monthes? Maddie is sick. Mom is going crazy. So I went back to bed. I didnt feel like handling the day right yet. So i woke up at 1:15pm... I know as I said I'm lazy today. So I got up went to my computer and talked to Kyle(http://www.deadjournal.com/~denthead/)and decided that we would go shopping. So I had my shower and went shopping. Got home at about 5:40pm. oh no, at about 5:50 cause I went to mickey d's for a quick din din. so then I kinda got a migrane, but I went outside anyways to water the plants that lisa planted for me yesterday. I can't wait im going to have cayenne peppers another, type of hot pepper, tomatoes billy boys (why is boys spelt boys not boies?? besides the fact it looks stupid.. i want cheese...) and beefsteak, and mmmmm I think thats it. Of course my wide variety of herbs too! (not those kinda of herbs u silly people!) Although speaking of those, we have catnip and Romeo is been stoned on it for about two days now and I can finally sleep through the night! Anyways, so as I was watering, I got soaked turning on and off the water 'cause it's leaking... well, more like flowing out of the tap. *note must fix that* So then I came in, came on the computer for a lil and started watching the hockey game. WHAT THE HELL WAS THAT?! The first two thirds, sucked for Calgary. I'm very upset! but u know for that team to make it that far you have to be proud of them and I am. I also still think the should of won in game 6. And now I must face the Leighton making fun of me cause I said Calgary would win. This sucks, cause yet again he was right and I was wrong. *sigh* Is that another 10 bucks i owe you? So, thats pretty much my day today, hopfully I'll keep this up and let u into the inside life of Leanne. Though it may not be interesting, but its a good way for me to vent lol.