must get back on track...

so today is thursday. right? ya i dont know what land ive been in this week but it definately isnt here. ive completely messed up all my days. wednesday i thought was tuesday so i missed going to the movies on tuesday. then i thought that this weekend was the july 1st weekend and i was going to ottawa tonight, but then realized its next weekend. then to top that off, i have a wedding the july 1st weekend that i forgot about. so now i cant go to ottawa at all that weekend. and part of the point of going to ottawa was to see kevin in his play and thats this weekend not the july 1st weekend. so i royally messed everything up! like what the hell am i doing? im normally on top of these things. totally messed up. and im sure i have some people rather pissed at me about it. i feel so bad. especially to alli cause i know she looks forward to us coming and i keep changing this on her. Anyways, so then last night, i had a panic lol. the computer shut down. because of some memory dump thing. that was probably around 7pm? couldnt do anything with it. it finally turned off. i completely went crazy though. i had nothing to do, nowhere to channel my energy lol. i turned on the tv. and maybe im crazy but i cant watch tv anymore. unless its something like sex in the city or nypd blue or something like that. there is nothing on! its all become these stupid reality shows etc. my god are they getting bad! i ended up watching, oh what is it that one about the four couples and testing their love or something. one person stays home while the other one leaves for the resort in mexico. how long has this show been on? like im sitting here thinking ok i can understand these problems after a month or so. u know temptation and stuff. but its only been a day?! like holy god people! and u call urself in love? the only actual love part is that dude frank i think. but he better get his ass in gear! even though i thought it was kinda cute that his friends were gonna take him to go see that heather chick. people are crazy though. after one day theyre all like oh i gotta leave him blah blah blah. i totally understand that with that brandon guy though sorry but hes an ASS! anyways *sigh* i so tired at the moment. mom wants me to go back and stay at her place tonight. at least its summer so i dont freeze my butt off. but i never get a good sleep there. i pretty much hate going back there. is that a bad thing? well k off i go. ill probably write more later.