happy birthday to me!

so its my birthday :) yay! hehe. i was woken up by mom knocking.. pounding at my door. i was fast asleep. but she was expected as she does this every year. she showed up at my door with a present and a dozen roses. they're very pretty. and my favorite :) smelling up my living room.. the present that she gave me has kinda of given me a little more hope today. im not really down because im a year older, infect i like being older. but the fact that im not where i wanted to be. but if i really do think about it i've done a pretty good job for myself. now i have to wait for things which i hate to do hehe. ahh well. so she gave me this lil book called No Limits but the Sky ~ Dream, Dare, Persevere, Succeed. in it is a bunch of little poems about future etc.. so i thought i'd share one...

Be Courageous
Courage uncovers strength,
grace reveals beauty.
time strips away the frivolous,
life layers on experience,
and you have become
magnificent

another year...

yeapers, as some might have known its my birthday next week. usually i take this time to think back on my year and think what i've done, what i wanted to do and what i havent done. this year, i just feel like blah... lol i havent done as much cooking as i'd would have like to that is for one thing. i was hoping to get some new things done but i really haven't. although i was very happy with my mothers day stuff. it turned out pretty good presentation wise, and thats one place ive always had a problem in. so ya yay me on that! financially i've stopped "helping out" others which surprisingly has made me a little better. i have this bad habit of giving too much and i really have to put a stop to it. i think recently lisas found that out a little more since i live with her but i really have to stop because it making me unhappy that i can't go and do the thing i want to do. anyways, its been an alright year. mom and dad have the cottage, i went to cuba... i've done a lot of travel around ontario which is nice. i need to visit toronto more i think. theres a lot to do there and i havent taken the time to go and see things. maybe this summer that'll be my goal :) So now my Birthday Party... June 4th 2005. bring alcohol, friends munchies i dont care. were watching movies, playing games, and eatting cake. i don't care what happens its my birthday and im getting drunk lol. last year i was so worried about everything i forgot to drink lol. this year i just dont care. im being selfish and its my day all about me! lol set my year off to a good start! i hope to see everyone there. and if u have any questions msn me or write me an email. i'll get back to ya. im going out with laura soon so i have to get ready. have a good week!

theres always next year right?

so another year has pasted. i cant believe this was the long weekend. first of all its freezing! wasnt it suppose to be warmer than it is? lisa and i headed up to the cottage friday night. maybe i should say saturday morning. we left at about 10:30 and got up to haliburton about 2am. saw two deer on the way. theyre so cute! hehe. so lisa and i had some dinner that mom left out for us and headed off to bed. we were so excited to get there. our first long weekend in our new cottage. new boat and everything. so saturday started alright. mom woke me up at 11. that should have been my first clue. ur not suppose to be woken up at the cottage! anyways, so mom was in her mood to not stop talking. all weekend! so dad came up on saturday afternoon. he took us out on the boat. started to rain and was freezing but it was nice saw lots of fishies on the fish finder hehe. that was fun. so sunday came and lisa and i wanted to go fishing but dad left the fish finder on and the battery died on the boat. so no fishing in the boat on sunday. so lisa and i took the canoe out. we went fishing for about an hour and lisa had to go pee. so we headed back in. mom and dad were just being asses with us so they went out and lisa and i went home. lol. so lisa and i came home and we had my moms friends were staying here and it was actually nice to see them. theyre so cute. so we watched the rest of ghost in the darkness and then we all went to bed. i must say i feel a lot better today. mom was just at us so much lisa and i hated to be there. so now we have to go over and pick up lisas van from mom and dads and talk to them. cause mom says she was shocked to see that we left. well duh! So now im watching Dirty Dancing. some reason i love this movie hehe. anyways! i hope everyones weekend went better than mine! i think next week i might go up for a week or so. just veg. ahh well i better take lisa to mom and dads soon. watch the rest of my movie.

Cottage weekend!

my first May 2-4 with a place to go! i love it! to the cottage we go! we were suppose to be leaving right now but lisas cleaning her room and well were going to avoid the traffic. although i hate doing that 118 in the dark cause i think i have to change the battery in my car and my lights are kinda dim. hopfully i wont kill any animals on the way. and boo to rob! ur suppose to save me from the evil mother and lisa telling me what to do all weekend! i hope everything is ok while were gone. pat and bob turner are going to be staying here and i just hope that things are ok for them. im sure they will be. i better call laura and tell them theyre stay or she might come over and be a little shocked. i hope romeo doesnt drive them nutty.

anyways, i have to research where the fire works and such are going to be in haliburton so im going to do that. i just wanted to ramble for a little while. yeap im bored. and i hate waiting. romeo agrees hehe. anyways. have a good weekend everyone. ill be back tuesday.

weekends alone go too fast!

hellooooooo! so sunday, what a lazy day. the weather its overcast. makes for sluggish moods i guess. this weekend ive been pretty busy. its amazing how that happens when lisa leaves me. she went up to the cottage on friday night with dad and i did some printing of pictures while i was at mom and dads dropping her off. til i ran out of ink. i feel kinda bad though. i assumed it was the colour that was out. i changed the colour, that i thought u had just done recently. nope. it was the black that was out. crap. wasted a colour cartridge. so i figure today i'll go to the meadowlands and pick up some black ink for dad. or maybe more so for my use. i guess if i really thought about it, i would of realized it was the black, since before i left to go to wiarton i couldnt print out my resume. stupid me. oh well. yesterday i went grocery shopping. thought i would spoil myself since i was by myself. bought a prime rib steak. things to make tater salad and everything. make so much and only eat like a pound of it lol. but a nice meal i had planned none the less. then as i was unpacking the groceries, laura, my other sister phoned me. asked if i wanted to go out to DiMaggios for dinner. well sure why not. i usually dont get to see a lot of laura but we do have our little things together. like shopping at Walmart when she needs something or going out to kelseys or DiMaggios for dinner. i never refuse that! then while i was waiting for her to come home from riding james asked me to go out for dinner and come watch a movie. i made it for the movie. we went to see Crash. an AWESOME movie! why? i love those movies that arent stream line. the same as everything else thats out there. so while we were on the way home, i figured it might make sense if james came home with me since im going to come see him on monday instead of me driving back and forth and such. *coffee break* k shes back. so anyways, james came back. the very next day. so while hes been sleeping, ive yet againi been waking up and cleaning a little. boiled the taters and eggs for potato salad. started doing the laundry to try and get him up. (no im not mean he asked me to lol) so far in 2 hours ive done 3 loads of laundry, showered and picked up a few more things. im attempting to get this place in good shape for next weekend since we might have the turners staying over. just because their daughter lisa lives right around the corner from me and instead of staying at my parents and driving back and forth the whole weekend they can just walk over in like 5 minutes. and bob the handy man can check out some things around the house for me. be so great! hehe anyways, james is out of the shower and such now so im going to drag him around town with me.

Colpoy's Bay

So last night i got home about 6:30pm. i took highway 6 all the way home. it was a nice drive. nice and sunny. of course that means my car is nice and warm as well so i can drive with the windows down. the only really annoying part was when i hit guelph, this chick was riding my ass all the way to highway 5. i think the limit there is about 80 and i went about 100 whenever possible so i was getting rather annoyed. but she sped off at highway 5. i love the drive. when i get home its like, as soon as i open the door i get completely stressed. even though i was working when i went away i had a really good time. i went to shadow pat in wiarton and it was good. she cooks lunch and a snack for the kids in the salvation army daycare. so it felt great that ur feeding these kids meals that are better than u would eat on a day to day basis, and what the only thing they might eat all day. So im going to see if i can apply to something around this area. we shall see! i should probably call mom at the cottage and tell her how things went.

hello from wiarton!

ok so im really in colpoy's bay. but close enough! i just got home from going to work with pat. she cooks the day care kids meals at the salvation army. im "shadowing" he for a couple days. its kinda nice. we went in for 9:30am and left at 2:30pm. perfect hours! just enough time to get a little tired but get everything done! lol so im downloading msn. ill see how long it take since, theyre on dial up. 28.8.. remember that?! lol kinda funny. just checked my mail and decided while i was waiting id write a little hello here. its rather cold up here! well i guess normal cold for this time of year. but the sun isnt shining and were right by the bay. tonight im making beer butt chicken with potatoes and gotta figure out some veggies. pat mentioned she wanted a dessert so on the way home i stopped by the IGA and picked up some pilsbury cookies. hope she likes them. she was saying how bob isnt a dessert eatter so i thought these would be perfect since i dont have to cook them all up at once! anyways, i should get a snack since i promised pat i would eat something since i havent all day. y is it so hard to think that people arent big eatters? lol oh well. i am kinda munchie and probably should start getting dinner ready. mmmm beer butt chicken! so good!!

*yawn*

k so its 8:14am. im up. obviously. Jeff, lisas boss called at 7:30am and woke me up. then he sent the other Lisa by to get my sister Lisa up to go to work. why i'm not sure. Lisa sleeps in or just doesnt go to work, i swear at least once a week. she doesnt want to work for jeff anymore. but shes not doing anything about it but complaining. why Jeff keeps her i'm not sure of that either. i know she hates working there, but if she hates it so much, why doesnt she look for another job? this is the question. my biggest fear is shes going to get fired eventually, and well, that'll mean no bills get paid. anyways, so i woke up and then i had to wake Lisa up and now im awake and completely tired, and couldnt get back to sleep. so i think its a nap day today!

this weekend was a rather busy but nice one. friday i went and got james and he spent the night. so while he was sleeping in, in the morning i went for groceries and cleaned the house. he woke up i cleaned more. then i took him to brantford to his moms place. came home and put my antipasto together and the veggie/cheese plate. then cleaned again. (i had a lot to clean) then went to bed at like midnight. then woke up at 9:30 sunday. vegged for an hour. mom called and said she was coming over at 2:30 instead of 5. i nearly died! so i hopped in the shower, and went out to zarkys to pick up a cake. i was going to make it but obviously that wasnt going to happen in 2 hours! so then she invited her friend and friends daughter to come over with the new baby. Logan is his name. born last week, 4 pounds 15oz. really small and 3 weeks early! so, i got back from zarkys at about 12:30. made a dipping sauce and some fish bites. (fish breaded in peanuts and coconut) it was pretty good! then i mopped the floor, lisa steamed cleaned the basement rug and picked up the bathroom. then i started making the crostini. now those turned out nice! and i didnt get a picture of them. oh well. i put the salmon loxs together and by that time mom had arrived. so i served out the sangria to dad and lisa, mom of course had her white wine. she "doesnt like sangria" crazy mother! then took out all the food and relaxed for a while.


so after serving some cake, and giving mom her pajamas with lil fishies on them. they left around 6pm. then i just cleaned up and took pics of the neighbours dogs and stuff for the evening.

i think im getting a sun tan on muy back from sitting on my couch. that would be just great! im going to finish my tea and i think go back to bed. im so tired from the weekend. im not sure why though. it wasn't all that bad!

how adorable is this?!

lisa and the neighbours 4 week old puppy!

oh!

and romeo wanted me to mention how he had a tiring day running back and forth between the front and back door yelling at us to let him out....

cutest fatcat u ever did see!

Happy Saturday!

so what else to do on a nice warm sunny saturday afternoon! take more pictures. today was a pretty well busy day i guess. i woke up at 9:30 sat for about an hour to wake up. then took my shower. pickedup the house a little. had a couple phone calls. then at 11 i was off to go grocery shopping. im making mothers day food. so i decied to make a antipasto platter, salmon lox with cream cheese wraps, a cheese platter with veggies, some chicken so laura will eat something and sangria for a beverage. oh crap i forgot dessert. hmm great. anyways, so i put the groceries away after spending 120 bucks on them! (mom better eat this food!) i got back around 12 and i kinda did some quiet cleaning, not to wake james up in the basement. then 12:45 came around and i said thats it im making noise! lol and that i did! i put dishes away, and ran water, i turned the basement light, so james knew it was light out. (fake sunshine in the basement) even brought my laptop into the kitchen while i cleans to music :) it worked. 30 minutes later he was up. i also went outside with lisa for a little to keep her company while she gardened.

toss that mulch!



then i cleaned up a little more. around 3 james and i headed out to the grocery store *again* to get stuff for the sangria. got some chinese lemon chicken as well since i was starving. drove james to brantford and we ate lemon chicken. it was really yummy! must have been fresh! so i got home at 4:20. made my cheese and veg platter, started the sangria, dad has to bring the wine. and i made my antipasto platter. i like it alot! (picture below)



so now ive pooped. dads i think will bring me the cusinart and wine over this evening. ill do the filling for the salmon wraps when that happens. add the wine to the sangria mix. and then just relax for the rest of the night. tomorrow i have to make some crostini and cook lauras chicken. and find a cake i guess. or a good recipie. hmmmm... make a cake? theres a thought. anyways happy weekend everyone!

life of romeo

nothing but sleep! but hes so cuuuuuuuuuute!

lil james...

lil james is sleep so cute! :op

picture time!

Friday not enjoying me taking her picture

the house. spring time hopfully by summer it'll fill out more.

my baby car! :)

our cottage! can't wait to get up there!

and maddie sitting on friday at the cottage. why does fri put up with it?

grey skies are going to clear up! put on a happy face!

so i guess tonight is just one of those nights. i have nothing to be upset about but im just in a down mood. well except my toe hurts. anyways, past week or so i've been talking to cae a lot. makes me really happy. i like to know whats going on with him and such. his english is a lot better and he asks me a lot more questions which is nice. i often wonder why 5 years ago he messaged me. it kinda funny too cause i remember the exact time he did message me. it was on icq and i think he just said hello. and i read his profile and for some reason, im not sure why because when i read people arent from ontario or somewhere familar i usually dont respond. probably because theyre men looking for cyber or something. which i never really got. anyways i started to talk back to him and thank god i did! anyways, so there that i should be happy about. then im finally going to wiarton next week. wednesday to probably friday. maybe saturday see how long pat will put up with me lol. cook them a couple meals im sure theyre appreciate it. tuesday im suppose to go on a date with someone but i was also suppose to see him 2 weeks ago lol. so i bitched him out when he messaged me so we'll see if this actually happens this week.

so, why do i feel like poo? i dunno! i also feel like moms taking problems out on me. nothing specific but she gets all moody with me when something else that she doesnt like is happening in her life. same with lisa. im getting pretty annoyed with some things in that department. i find myself doing everything but the cat litter in this house and i dont think i should be doing it all. granted she does the outside once in a while, but last time i checked i didnt sign anything saying ill clean up and do ur laundry and look after every single thing. i thought it was a 50/50 effort and right now it seems more like a 90/10 effort. i have a life of my own too and wish i didnt have to worry about coming home to a mess everytime i leave. oh well, i guess it'll never change and i have to accept that. now that im back into things after cuba, i just feel so stressed here. i need something. maybe a job, but thats coming. maybe a man, but i like to think thats coming too. but i dunno, maybe i just need to get back to the way i used to be. im finding lately im just not me. after cuba its come out of me a little but i was always happy and always smiling. im sure if u go back in my blogs u can tell. somethings weighting me down and i dont know what it is. maybe i'll figure it out.

in the meantime! my savings are going well. i have to call tomorrow about my gic's. see if i can get them back. i reported them lost in a move january 4th and they told me i have to call back after may 4th and say i havent found them yet. that will go directly to my trip to brazil. money im saving now im hoping will go to it as well. then i also have to get somethings fixed on the car. timing belt, starter and brakes. the belt and brakes costing about 600 each. they told me if the belt goes on me i have to get a whole new engine so thats number one on the list. but according to voltswagon i dont have to get it done til 128,000km im at 125,500km i think? and with the cottage open now im sure 128 will come quicker than i'd like. things will get sorted! im a little down but still lookin up! im sure something will fix this mood.

Spring again!

okay im coming to conclusions that i dont really like. first its may. its my birthday at the end of the month. im turning 24. holy crap! one year from 25. almost a quarter of a century old. i thought by now i would much further along in my life. not that im really not doing well but i thought at this point i'd at least have a stable job cooking somewhere. i for sure didnt think i'd be at home, with no direction to go. so as most know lisa and i are planning to move apart. not due to her and i not getting along, but the safety of living here has changed and i dont like. and i think lisa was just stickin around here for 5 years so i culd get the house at the end of it. but things change i guess. i need to change something. i was suppose to go to wiarton this week but pats daughter had a baby 3 weeks early so that kinda messed things up. so we'll see about that. so i've decided that im going to start packing my things up, then maybe that will get lisa movin too. then put this place up for sale :( im kinda excited about getting my own place though. should be fun. i just hate to rent though. ahh well. anyways! so my other plan is the job stuff. i need to get something part time. maybe live up at the cottage for the summer or something. find some little job up there. i should become a pizza delievery girl! lots of tips on that job! who knows. then come home and find a new place. maybe i should try a different city? at least the good news is if i sell this place id get most of my money back that i put on a down payment (i hope) then i can go brazil with cash left over! how great is that?! (lets hope that works out)

then the other thing is, its spring and of course the whole boyfriend thing is on the mind. its just been way too long. i just woke up this morning and thought im 24 years and feeling so alone in that department. but as mom says i need to et out of the house and someone will find me. agreed. OMG! i just agreed with my mother! *GASP* *dies* ......