Spring again!

okay im coming to conclusions that i dont really like. first its may. its my birthday at the end of the month. im turning 24. holy crap! one year from 25. almost a quarter of a century old. i thought by now i would much further along in my life. not that im really not doing well but i thought at this point i'd at least have a stable job cooking somewhere. i for sure didnt think i'd be at home, with no direction to go. so as most know lisa and i are planning to move apart. not due to her and i not getting along, but the safety of living here has changed and i dont like. and i think lisa was just stickin around here for 5 years so i culd get the house at the end of it. but things change i guess. i need to change something. i was suppose to go to wiarton this week but pats daughter had a baby 3 weeks early so that kinda messed things up. so we'll see about that. so i've decided that im going to start packing my things up, then maybe that will get lisa movin too. then put this place up for sale :( im kinda excited about getting my own place though. should be fun. i just hate to rent though. ahh well. anyways! so my other plan is the job stuff. i need to get something part time. maybe live up at the cottage for the summer or something. find some little job up there. i should become a pizza delievery girl! lots of tips on that job! who knows. then come home and find a new place. maybe i should try a different city? at least the good news is if i sell this place id get most of my money back that i put on a down payment (i hope) then i can go brazil with cash left over! how great is that?! (lets hope that works out)

then the other thing is, its spring and of course the whole boyfriend thing is on the mind. its just been way too long. i just woke up this morning and thought im 24 years and feeling so alone in that department. but as mom says i need to et out of the house and someone will find me. agreed. OMG! i just agreed with my mother! *GASP* *dies* ......