where is it?

today is a really bad day. I'm pissed of with everything. I'm not sure why. I feel like giving up on things for some reason. First of all yesterday I went and got the truck for lisa. I left my car there thinking I would have the truck until she needs it. She took it to work. When I was picking it up mom gave me a present to take to burlington for her. I was under the impression that mom had missed the shower or something. She left me a message this morning asking about it. That the shower was today and if i didnt deliever I.. yes me could take it to one of her friends places for them to take. First of all, take it urself. favours turn into chores because my mother is too damn lazy and avoids people. 2. she wastes me time. if her friends are going to this shower, tell me to take it to them where i know where they live. not go to burlington 3 times to find this house which for some reason i can't! and why doesnt she just go to the shower? its not like shes doing anything but drinking herself away at home and driving me nuts... So now the other thing is Lisa. I can;t stand this anymore. she does nothing but play her games on the computer. Clean your own dishes, look after your cat, clean something once in a while. Do you own laundry. Call me crazy but if she has some laundry that needs done and so do i, i put them together. and if something in the dryer, i take it out and fold it etc... even if its not mine. it just makes sense. but time and time again i go down my clothes are sitting all wrinkled on top of the dry and her clothes are being dried. if there are clean dishes int he dishwasher and u have stuff to put in, dont put them on top of the washer, clean it out and then put them in. what is so hard to about these things?! i just don't get it. the other day she walked into the kitchen and said "this place is too hard to look after" i almost died. i felt like saying excuse me?! i haven't seen her do anything inside the house in monthes. i feel like.. i dunno. giving up. i do these things for family and i just feel walked on. nothing is ever enough. everything i do is wrong. I'm getting so sick of being independant and strong and just taking what people through at me. I need some sort of an escape. So where is it? Is it in Cae who seems to be the one who amazingly enough understand me and is more there for me than anyone and doesn't even know it. or is it in moving away and just looking after me? or just getting away from everything for a while? i don't know.