oh what a turkey day!

thank god im home! i think im still recovering for my weekend. maybe its the rain. i was on complete brain overload on the weekend. between mom and uncle ed no one could get a word in edgewise! my brain was about to blow up. so sunday i had to get out of the cottage and i took the video back to the store and stayed there for about an hour and half just to have some piece and quiet. wow that was crazy! But all in all it was a great weekend. the weather was gorgeous! and the colours were changing! i think last years colours were better but still who can complain! im thinking i might go to the cottage this weekend just for one last good by as mom and dad close it up for winter *pout*

Aunt Jackie phoned me today and started talking Christmas already! I think I might make some perogies this year. be a slave to the kitchen one of these days. It seems things will be rather different this coming year. Uncle Ed might not be there. He's going to move to Edmonton. I'm going to help with the driving and hes going to fly me home. I'm really excited about that! i've never been west and have always wanted to go! So pack me up and I'm ready to go! it's going to probably be soon too! like before the 15th of Novemeber and I'm really excited! pictures everywhere! hehe. yeap I hope it all works out cause thats just going to be fun. bring my discman for sure!
then amanda. who knows if she'll show up. it would be nice even if uncle ed isnt there. she wasnt at Thanksgiving and I haven't seen much of her lately. we'll see we''ll. i keep saying that to myself lately.

I figured out whats wrong. just in general, when you finish you schooling etc... theres nothing to keep you going. like all your life you have school. elementry to highschool to college. always a stepping stone. then after college you get the job. then what? a relationship? but what if that doesn't happen. its like living the same day over and over. get up go to work get home maybe see so friends. whats the next stepping stone? I've always been one to look at the next thing. and i can't find the next thing. there no plan for the next year. i have to find something to step on lol.

I guess a good start to that is my photography. I've decided to take a course at Mohawk. Photography of course. just once a week, evening class for like 8 weeks or whatever it is. I'm not perfect at the photos so I'm hoping that this course will get me a step closer, and it'll be fun. I asked dad if I can borrow the camera for it and hes fine with it. that makes me happy. I think in the up coming year its going to be on my list to buy. a good camera. like dads so i dont have "rules" drives me nuts that it sits on the counter and he's not using it. oh well. its his right? right. so maybe thats my next little stepping stone. I'm looking foward to it.