so sad to face the truth...

so hi hows it going? its 11, and my show just ended. i love it! its called greys anatomy and everytime i watch it, at some point i cry. lol i dunno if its good or not but i love the show. i think it hits my heart. im so sick of this dating thing. im completely loney and i hate it. like i wanted to come back upstairs and curl up beside them and just fall asleep. its probably cause this past week ive been on a couple dates and im craving all of that, that comes in a relationship with someone. maybe the fact that i've never been that comfortable. so i put my heart out there and i get nothing in return but some horny man just wanting sex or something. maybe im too upfront. i just say this is what i want and if u font have the time or feeling to give it to me they get scared and run away. i dunno but i need someone. soon. im sick of being brave and strong to take on the next day. i meet these totally cute, sweet people and with every person i meet i get closer to who i see myself with, but why do they treat me so well then just disappear? maybe i just want something too much. i dunno. im lost and am in need. how sad do i sound?!