my poor bella boo...

today, well its been interesting. ive been rather tired all day but i kinda woke up around 9pm. i had physio today, that went alright kinda blah like. i think it was the rain icky day it was. so after physio i went to moms. talk about her house being freezing! she had all the windows and doors open. maybe yesterday but not today shes crazy! i printed her some invatations for her "neighbourly tea party" its turned into her annual event. its kinda funny hehe. so after that i came home, did some research for dad about tents for moms yet dads dinner party in december. moms pullin a "if i dont get my way im not doing it" and then dad i think is seeing it more way. im finding myself putting myself between the two duking it out. im sure we'll figure it out. i hope, cause i really don't mind the work. then mom phoned later this evening and let us know that on monday bella was going to be put to sleep cause shes not making it through the night on her pain killers and stuff so shes really starting to suffer, and we can go see her if we'd like. i dont think i can do that. just to weird with people in the room with me hehe. just sitting there and crying or something. so after that i headed over to lauras to tell her the news. around 10pm i thought she'd come down and see me but no, i had to go up the four flights of stairs, which surprisingly easier i found this time then it was a year ago. actually i dont find that a surprise cause i think this year ive become a lot stronger in some ways, after that whole trasnplant stuff. anyways, she took it alot better than i did. the other thing is i havent heard from my jenjenin like a week. this kinda worries me. of course! lol makes me think ive done something, but i know i havent cause even if either of has pissed either off we tell eachother. so shes probably been really busy. hopfully she'll phone me tomorrow. before i go to bed now, i just wanna give a big congrats out to my burlington rob for getting his new job. so happy for him! so night for now, im gonna be sleeping forever tomorrow i hope hehe so ill see u all when i get up! thats right i said u all! :op