just something...

ok, this is driving me nuts. im watching my so called life and its that first meeting really of angela and jordan and he just basically leans over and kisses her. and now im dying! ok im just really in the mood for you know one of those butterfly in the tummy completely good feeling kisses. i feel like completely dying at this moment because theres no one there to do that with. but thats ok right? one day. i just wanna curl up into someone and fall asleep and just be. just be. its one of those things i need and feel like its never gonna happen. i need hope again. anyone? i just wishing now while i was at the cottage and stuff while sitting there in the morning on the deck having my coffee and such how i wish i could share that with someone beside me. it would be perfect. maybe im just dreaming, but cant i have that? soon? please? i think i just need something new in my life at this time. i was talking to laura at the cottage and she asked me.. u know when u get to that point, where u think, this cant be it, there has to be something more? and sad enough to say im feeling that right now i guess. at least i know im not the only one feeling it. i'll figure something out soon. i hope. and now i must got to bed cause i have the dentist tomorrow. and thats off my chest. night.