taking stance

So, I've decided I have to change something. It'll be good for me. Since i feel like everyone, or at least i feel everyone (but jen) treats me like im invisable or something, i will be. It makes me feel like crap. I would do anything for any friend that i've known. Even if i havent seen u in monthes, or even years. why because i love people and i love my friends even more. even if ur not the greatest person in the world, i only see the good in u. for instants sean, or mike or any other person i've let wonder in my life and basically walk all over me. some people would probably say that i do these things to make people want me or something of that sort. maybe in part i do, but to me its the way i would like to be treated i guess. my friends are the world to me, and i would do anything for them. i would also do alot for complete strangers because im a loving and giving person. and maybe one might see that. but right now i feel i have to change that. because i feel like people arent appriciating anything i do for them, and im getting walked all over. there is always that exception though and thats jen, she loves me for everything i am, and we do things for eachother rather than always taking from me and i love her to death for it. she respects me and would probably die without me, and i would do the same for her. as my sister would say "shes the only friend i know, that doesnt want anything from u but ur friendship" and to laura, i must agree. i wish everyone of my friends were like that, in that respect. in fact i wish everyone was like her in that respect. i think this world would be a great one if jen and i rule it lol. but today is my stance that i will no longer be hurting inside from people using me and making me feeling empty. and if this sounds egotistic i dont mean it to be but if certain people dont figure out things, about me, there gonna loose having me around, and im gonna miss u tons but i cant let this hurt me anymore.