rainy days...

today, well ive been pretty quiet. i dont know why. i think its the weather change. i hate getting these migranes and feeling like this. it makes me think. how i wanna curl up into someone, how i need to get my ass moving about catering. how i should get my ass moving. its frustrating me. i think i gotta just get back into things... tomorrow is planning time i think. lol i hope. i said by the end of the month and it shall happen, in 2 days? i might have to work my butt off. but i shall try. k that was clearing my head. today lets see i started off with the best sleep ive ever had. then went up to kyles and watched identity. kinda cool movie. i thought when i bought it i saw it but then realizing i havent afterwards. but it had john cusack so how can u really go wrong? good movie if ur thinking about seeing it, see it. what else... *i need a hug* then when i got home, i just vegged then lisa came home and we went out and "tended to the gardens" i gotta drug up my plants tomorrow i think with a lil miracle grow. after that jason came over which was nice to see him. of course im in this really weird confused mood at the moment so i was rather blah. i made us coffee and we just watched tv. and i had an egg sandwich. then i talked to jen and played some mindsweeper with her, she updated me on some dundas gossip from older classmates, which was enjoyable to hear that nothing changes sometimes. why are people so afraid to change? maybe im just ahead of most people and need that feeling that i wanna grow and be my own person more than others at this age but, i dunno people, change is good change is good. it adds to the life experience. need to get outta the safety shell i think. i think i kinda answered that mood im in lol... well at least one mood im in. right now i wish i was on a beach with the sun going down. that'll be a goal this summer i think. random thoughts today. so im gonna go now. and maybe wake up in a better mood? not that im in a bad mood, just a mood.