hrmm...

So today what did i do.. well i woke up. i think thats a good start to my day yes? I saw Cae, well talked to him breifly today on the computer. (Hes my lil Brazilian friend) I miss him tons cause i never get to talk to him anymore. So I had some more toaster strudels today that was yummy, then had my morning coffee while talking to cae. then i get a phone call from my stupid doctor, telling me that im not taking my meds because i havent gotten my bloodwork done. i was so upset! let me tell ya, like hello getting bloodwork done and not taking meds is completely different. i felt like crying! i know i should get my bloodwork done yes u need not to tell me these thing, but ERRRRRR! this has really bugged me lol. anyways, what else, oh yes i went to the collins with kyle. that was nice, i think i had my doctors on my mind so i was kinda quiet. i think lately ive been kinda quiet for some reason. oh well. im sure ill get over it. Other thing really on my brain, this whole boyfriend thing drives me mad. it doesnt help that in the back of my head i have the fact that every boyfriend ive had is now gay, or the fact that most of my friends are gay. Its when i come over to mom and dads and everytime i mention a new "guy" the thing that flys out of moms mouth is "Is he gay?!" like oh my god does everyone have to remind me of this fact? at least i know that i want a sensitive man! lol i dont even know if its that. maybe they jus tfind me or something. i dunno. i just know im sick of being lonely and people poking fun at the fact that i am. im sick of being the friend. i want more. its the only thing missing from my life and im sorry to the guys that im not gonna whip off my clothes and have sex with u before we start into a relationship cause that isnt the way i work, and whats under my clothes is going to need a lot more understanding then i think u know. so thats that. im at mom and dads right now because im staying over. i dont want to be here. since ive moved out i get why mom always said, "i just wanna sleep in my own bed" well i just wanna sleep in my own bed when i come and stay here. i feel trapped like after 9pm thats it i cant go anywhere. it sucks. by the sounds of this log today it sounds like im really not in a good mood or something but really i promise i had a good day lol. i stopped off to see jason and gave him some plants. it was kinda nice to see him after 2 monthes. kinda. couldn't stay long mom was waiting in the car. Thats another thing. mom has asked me to go with her to huntsville tomorrow to look at cottages. fine. great. she picks me up from my place no hesitation, moves into the passenger side of the truck im driving. We all know i love to drive i have no problems driving. but when u wont even let me go to the bank with the truck because u tell me i have the car, which i have to move two other cars out just so i can go to the bank with it, why are u so quick when u dont wanna drive. oi! it makes me so frustrated! oh well i get to drive im happy, except its going to be like ive never driven in my life for 3 hours there and three hours back. because well i can drive the truck, but not the right way! *mothers*sigh* yeap i think thats all i have to bitch about today. for now.. i should probably go to bed cause i gotta leave at 6am. so later dudes.